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I had scrambled eggs and goats cheese for breakfast and soup for lunch - no bread, but oops i had a little vanilla cheesecake with my youngest son.

I am cooking a Joanna Lumley recipe from the Times supplement with lemons and olives with it for tonight. Looking forward to it, will have with fresh veg and no potatoes.

Still need to drink more, but I am getting there slowly.

Tomorrow I meet my middle daughter for lunch at a Farm Shop cafe, so I will be eating lovely fresh food there too! My youngest, Jake willl be with me; I really need to insist he tries other things for dessert that are not chocolate or simple carbs. He is a difficult one, he is a person that eats a certain range of foods and avoids all others, in spite of the fact we have always eaten a good range of high quality foods!

I have just listened to Day 7 again and the motivational resource.
Looking six months ahead is a bit scary considering what has happened to my weight in the last six months.
Extending thinking about a year to 5 years in the future. Healthwise I think I would possibly have high blood pressure, diabetes type II, achy joints and little energy amongst other things!
Do I really want that?
No not at all, I may have lost my mojo but I do not want to die young and diseased.
I want to be in a good place with which to deal with life, which can be difficult a lot of the time at the moment.
In reality I try to enjoy each day, shortsightedly socially eating with my family amongst other events. I still find it difficult to separate social, emotional eating from eating for my health, they are so entangled together in my mind.
Me changing does not change anything around me, I always expect it to; It does not change my mother's hypocondriacal ways, my husband is mostly preoccupied with keeping the business running in these economic times, my boys are growing up and becoming more independent.
Something always seems missing, but am I missing the point?
The only thing I can change is me I suppose.
Heavier = more tired and lethargic, achy muscles, more prone to pulls and strains and more melancholy, I do not think my set point for happiness, is that high. What I have just written isn't totally true.
I have enjoyed our week away in our lodge even in the rain. Had daughters to stay some of the time and Livie and her husband popped in on their way home from the coast again to see us yesterday and we enjoyed some more time together.
My husband has mixed work and rest - the business is on the brink and could go either way. so i-phone emailing much in evidence. I am used to it and it is necessary but it can ruin continuity damn it.
Some of the time husband at laptop, sons on ccomputers one on laptop the other on i mac, so I am in practice a computer widow to my family so I sometimes join in - if you cannot beat them join them!
I spend time in my garden and just before we went away I planted the last climbers to have up against my garage, the last for now at any rate.
I have wallpapering to do, curtains to wash and turn up, cushions to make and my psychology course to continue. Stuff abounds and then I have to fit in some exercise as well as the activity.
Eating only when I am hungry will be a good start.
Enough words already!
Earthmother x

Perhaps one way to get myself under control away from the duck s is to shop online for my food so that I am not tempted by the sweet stuff!
Sounds sensible after listening to Day 17 again!
Earthmother x

Well I am having some difficulty at the moment!
My brain will not engage with the fact that I am putting on weight with what I am eating.
We eat all the healthy stuff on a daily basis, perhaps not enough fruit but I am eating nuts, seeds fish, veg etc.
Unfortunately I am eating cakes, ice cream mochas you name it, it feels like a collapse, except I know it is not what I really want, really; But I am confused about what life has in store for us in many ways.
I do not know how to deal with life at the moment; my 15 is announcing very vocally that he does not want to go on holiday with us for a week. Well that is too bad it is one of the last ones he will have to take with us, he was only 15 in May!
So no way jose is he not coming! - Stress
Business successful? Stress
Husband preoccupied! Stress
Where is more money coming from? Stress
What do I want? Stress
What is happening to our money invested in property for our pensions? Stress

On the otherhand I have really enjoyed finishing off planting my garden and tending my flowers.
I have enjoyed getting ready to go away to our lodge; ironing, sorting the house.
I have decorated the lounge with a feature wall in laura ashley wallpaper - looks really good!
I have painted three walls in our cami's/guest bedroom and will be putting up a feature wallpaper on return from our break.
We may be meeting my middle daughter this aftie in Wells and willl prolly take her to the Bishops Palace there for afternoon tea - it is so peaceful and serene in there as the towns sounds melt away!
Finally she and Marc will be celebrating their 1st Wedding Anniversary tomorrow!
A year ago we were in Kefalonia ready for the wedding- an age ago already!
Lastly Olivia also wants to spend a couple of days with us next week at the lodge - so I am really happy about that - she and I get on so well!

Daily life can be great but the big picture is so much less certain and I eat cakes for England and have put on lots of weight - I haven't cared that I am for some unfathomable reason, but when I stepped on the scales for the first time in about a month wow what a weight gain!
I have got to motivate myself again somehow!
Earthmother x

Hi

I have vastly reduced the sugar and stimulants I have been eating lately and it makes me feel so goood!

I have managed to stop eating when full today too, forgotten to do that for a while.

I am drinking more water too.

I have felt hunger again, again not been very noticeable for the last couplde of months.

Guess how my body feels - happy to be eating healthy food and no brain fog from simple carbs, cos `I ain't eating them!

I still feel sad about Daisy our puppy going and it hurts when I think about her and that is how I think I will be feeling for a while, but I will get used to it.

My weight is going to go down and i am going to feel great again, that is certain.

Earthmother xxx

Hi
I have finally got off my backside and went up and used my gym equipment just now.
I spent a few minutes on the exercise bike and then a few more on the cross trainer and used the weights to do some arm exercises. This was followed by a run through of ab exercsies!

I ate only fruit and nuts and seeds at breakfast time and I have begun to up my water again.

MY WOBBLE IS OVER - thank god.

My intention is to take it slowly but not so slowly that I stall and see what difference a week will make for a start. I hope to see increased energy, clearer head, more positive mental outlook and a feeling that I have been using my whole body and feeling a little more toned.

Earthmother xxx

We have thoroughly enjoyed all that is the Festival, not a visitor but from where we live we can see it and at least hear the bass beats of the bands playing.

The rest of the time watching it on HD has been absolutely amazing !

Knowing all those famouse people have been within a few miles of where we live has been a big boost too, I know it makes no difference to my higher being but music does unite us in its raw emotion as humans.

I am not a great fan of Muse, wow the drummer with Muse was absolutely amazing and fantastic! (and fit too, tho as a 55 yr old it is cradle snatching!) or Stevie Wonder, what an experience! - but watching them perform and the vibes throughout the crowds there and on TV and from watching from the or on Saturday, I have felt part of humanity and seen how we can all come together in a positive and happy way.

Just get the heck off the roads around Glastonbury today as quickly as possible please! LOL

Love and Hugs
Earthmother xxxx

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The people who came yesterday were ideally suited to her and having big dogs around, unlike us. My daughter and son and me took her for a walk in a nearby forest - a lovely image to remember her in my head over time, and the look on her face and the times where she was lovely.

My heart is hurting like crazy, as is my 12 year olds, it hurts so much even though it was the right decsion. It feels as horrendous as losing my human baby Josh at the moment. The house feels empty.

A sad Earthmother xxx

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Wow being in Glastonbury on th eoccasion of 40th Glastonbury Festival, up the Tor at sunset and the full moon rising and seeing the festival from afar - well not far but down the vale. There must have been at tleast a huncdred people or more on the top there! The tower is lit because it is the 40th Festival too!

It as an amazing sight to behold, sinmultaneously watching the moon rise and turning and seeing the sun setting - what a view from up there.

It has taken me almost 2 years to go up the Tor - the length of time we have lived here. Although Glastonbury has been my least favourite place to live , there are compensations - and last night was certainly one of them!

My husband is away and older son doing his own Tor visit with his mates, it was my youngest son and me.

So I thank God for such a unique and overwhelming experience, it was a humbling and inspiring experience! I really needed as special evening like that and to feel the group feeling up there - it was great!

Right on the otherhand climbing it was difficult, carrying more than 4 bags of sugar on me than i had a few months ago. Whereas my youngest he fair sprinted up it.

I will set myself a challenge to reclimb it when I have got down to my target weight again and feel how much easier it might be!

People coming to see puppy today, they sound like good potential owners for her - we shall see!

Time for breakfast etc and a last woodland walk with her this am and my middle daughter visiiting - her husband away with my husband at an exhibition at Sandown!

Another great experience ps was an impromptu invite to my eldest daughter's new barn and my other daugthers were there too on Friday evening, so left the boys home alone and spent a lovely evening with my girls - I got to go out and I am so proud of my super grown-up girls - they are smasing and caring and loving and we hada lovel group hug!

Hugs to you all!
Earthmother xxx

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Well last year I thought I had it all sussed - and here I am discovering that wobbles can last a long time and that stressful situations cause me to wobble in a big way.

My army of ducks has been at my heels for some time, I had forgotten how persuasive they can be when you are not feeling strong. I have let carbs define me again,but it it not want I want to be.

I am taking decisve action today to sort something that has been bugging me for some time; Our puppy is a disaster in many ways - unfortunately. I jus tdo not think I can handle such a large breed as my labradoodle is.

IWe thought we wanted a 'proper' dog instead of a cocker spaniel which we have owned before and really got on with. After Polly died we thought we would not have a dog again, or indeed another pet.

We now have a 14month old tabby, Sophie and an almost 10 month old tortie and white, Lily. They are very sweet and very different cats each of them. We love having living companions living with us.

Daisy on the otherhand is sweet but such a handful - she has wrecked totally the dynamics of the household and it all seems like a containment game so none of the pets can be enjoyed to their full extent.

We have stairgates up and have to get the cats in and out with a safe route, Daisy is just such a cat chaser. I am so tired ot the situation. She has too much energy for us and I know she is still set to grow twice the size she is, she will be a large labradoodle.

So I admitting defeat and I am going to carefully rehome her withpoeple who are better suited to her. I feel really bad about it, but I feel even worse for the cats and Daisy herself :(

Hence my big wobble as always I have resorted to eating to solve the problem and all that has happened is that the problem is still there and I am larger and wishing i wasn't, though I am achieving my walking goals and my arm muscles are more toned with the dog walking. There is a silver lining to everything.

You may all have different opinions on what I am doing, but I have finally decided what is best for all concerned.

I need to get back to being the real me

Earthmother xxx

Hiya back again!

I am ready to get myself going again, with just a little thinking time now!
She is more time consuming than a human baby - my labradoodle Daisy!
She is learning the art of controlled walking now and we are going to puppy classes too!
She has take a lot of control of the environment and time away from me - more than I expected and I have had very little time to think about food properly, it seems to have been quick dashes to supermarkets over the last few weeks!
I have not done my dancing either which I love - I intend to have a go later this week if it is on this week.
Right here goes - let's get rid of headaches, some stress, revitalize myself and get fitter slimmer and healthier! I will be reporting back shortly.

The voucher is well worth it too that Pete has advertised - have a look.

This earthmother is going to move heaven and earth to become all of the above - I do not like being blobbier and tireder at all!

Hugs Earthmother xxx

Wow where to start! Sorry long time no blog!

Daisy is a full time job and duty at the moment and I am stressed with the responsibility of her in a way I didn't expect.
She is a big darling actually as she is a chocolate labradoodle with lovely soulful brown eyes - so pretty and intelligentI need support to get.
In a week I can actually take her out for a walk, she had her 2nd vaccination yesterday.
She is doing great with sits, wait, heel etc and tonight I start a puppy socialization course, me on my own this week and she for the following 5 weeks and then we may do some agility classes - I think she will need them!

My dancing has gone by the by at the moment but soon I will get back to them, I am so tired by the evening. But maybe that is because I am doing no other exercise since we got back from Portugal.

I need some support to get me back on the straight and healthy and some light relief - I so loved Pete's video of his birthday on the golf course - I want more times like that!

I have a husband who is oh so stressed, with some back ache, who also whenever he eats any sort of sugar or yeast gets terribly dozy and dizzy and has to sleep, ps he avoids them at all costs! and he just wants to lie and rest and watch about politics to see what it means for us - laudable as he is the one with the burden to carry. And we seem confrontational all the time when something just doesn't need to be that way when at other times we are so close - I do not get it at all!
I want fun times too!

Sam is way behind with his ICT elements I do not know why he has not been made to do them - some caused by our late arrival at the school when we moved to Glasto. Secondly his fractured pelvis did him no favours!

I have had no letters from school either about it and his art is not quite up to scratch either - weird as they are both his passions ??????
Well he is sorting catching up now and the teacher said the work he had done was brill yesterday and last week he said if only he finished the work he would get a merit and was on track for an A or A* next year!

So guys give me a shove in the right direction will you please :)
Cos otherwise I will get what I always got and that is plain stupid.
Which I am beginning to believe I must be after following Pete's programme for a year - me stupid not the programme stupid!

My biggest problem is not being used to fast growing up family and an always busy husband, I still feel like a spare part sometimes .
I make lots of organisational decisions on my own, I constantly do everything but earn the money, I plug any gap there is on my own.

In contrast we hung loads of pictures around the house on Saturday and that felt lovely with me and my husband doing something creative and constructive together. So the house is feeling more like our home too.

So you can see I am a mixed up soul who needs support from you lot.

Hugs to you all
Earthmother xxx

Just to let you know after been stranded in Portugal for an extra 6 days of sun swimming sand and a little Sangria only, we have to be back here already not having the long train journeys we hoped for from 28 - 30 April now cancelled of course.
We were going to really enjoy a different way of travelling, still another time!
I kept a lid on my eating whilst away, but I still find in really stressful situations houwever happy I do what I always did, silly me!
But I have got my list of the 9 tools back up in my kitchen and I am going to abide by them from now!
Daisy is a labradoodle and a lovely wavy chocolate coat - already responding to my little bit of training over the last three days - she is very lovely and very bright!
I must not leave her too long, so I am off - it is very much like having a little baby all over again - except ofr the sharp little teeth that is!!!!!!
Earthmother xxx

We the time has finally arrived! Early to bed and very early to rise - 245am to be precise!
But it does give us an extra day there as we will arrive about breakfast time - about 845 - 900am. We should be at our villa by about half ten. The weather forecast is good.
So I will be:
Walking
Swimming
Five minute Workouts
Eating healthily and as little simple carb as possible if none at all.
Lots of water drinking
Trying new foods Pete as suggested on Nutrition Programme
and of course I will be relaxing with my family.
Just the flight first, which always sets my IBS off a little, not as much as it did, for which I am pleased.
Boy I am excited pleased that my husband's back has vastly improved as he has begun to do more exercise to strengethen it after his op last August.
So this holiday will not be dedicated to pain relief in any shape or form! As it was for the majority of last year, bless him he did have such a horrid year healthwise.
So all I can say is roll on tomorrow morning!
Enjoy your Easter breaks if you have one!
Speak to you guys in 10 or 11 days!

Hugs and Love
Earthmother xxx

I do hope you all have an amazing weekend!
I feel great right now - everything is going in the right direction: I am becoming slimmer, I feel healthier and I am becoming fitter again gradually. I have been given the all-clear with my GTT. Blood pressure appears within normal bounds.
Losing weight will help my cholesterol levels too!
Now I can get my exercise ramped up now I know things are all ok.
I will continue my dance after the easter break, start cycling again.
While I am away in Praia da Luz this time I will again be swimming lots every day and do my 5 minute workouts with Pete and Colin and hopefully do some walks too.
I do want some chilling out time too! We WILL BE RELAXING!
My daughter and her husband are coming too and they are very easy to get along with - so it is all great!
We are away for 10 days in the SUN, I may add, and then we pick up our little labradoodle chocolate puppy (girl) yippee - she is a real darling!
So in the coming weeks and months etc I will be getting a lot of walking exercise too!
She is already booked into puppy socialisation classes and training - she will be the most obedient dog on the planet!
I am looking better than I have for a while and my clothes are becoming looser again.
With the nutrition programme too, it just helps to spur you on even more.
I am in a good place after a few weeks of withdrawal headaches from citalopram which have not helped my emotional and mental state. But that is all gone and I feel I have the whole of the exciting times ahead being slimmer and fitter and healthier!
Hugs to you guys!
Earthmother xxx