Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Its been a lovely weekend, spent time with my family, who are all now preparing to go off to 6th form college, and uni, and returning to school, and spent some lovely time with my 'young man'....... I did actually end this relationship about a month ago as i thought the differences we had were just two much to get around, chalk and cheese literally, but it was awful...... we both missed each other so much, that we done a lot of talking and decided what we had was worth saving and so we have spent some lovely times together and I know a lot of it was down to my insecurities about my size and age, he was married for 35 years to someone who was very tiny, and never had the food issues or self confidence issues that goes with years of weight problems, and he is 7 years younger so that didnt help much.... but we are having some lovely times again now and I am starting to believe he really does want to be with me, so when he is out doing his thing and i am here doing my thing with my family i am not paranoid anymore, we are starting to meet each others families now, slowly slowly, and the difference in our financial status property etc, dosnt even enter his head as he is as happy as larry in his own world and not even the slightest interested in buying a house again so some of his ' laid backness' is really helping me , so maybe chalk and cheese but i have calmed him right down for still thinking he is a 'lad about town ' ha ha , and he is helping me enjoy the simpler things in life much more, we dont have to go out for fancy meals etc, he loves cooking for me and does amazing healthy meals, last night he cooked a gorgeous roast topside, and served it with spinach, brocoli carrots and peas, he had roasties too, and i think that was another thing for me, to accept someone really wants to look after me and spoil me like that, he wont even let me wash up, it was hard after so many many years of me doing for everyone else...... so we are back on track, i was so so shocked at just how upset I felt when I drove away from him, so maybe this 25 year singleton has a heart that is melting a bit when it comes to the male species, and that is a day I never thought I would see either , petecohen.tv has a lot to answer for !!!! but for now I am enjoying myself too much to worry about what might happen next week, i am keeping it in the day, and today all is great.
I went to the gym today, felt really really good and next week i am going up to 3 days a week, all day I have been so full of energy this is the first time I have sat down and sat still....... oh my word what a difference a year makes, this time last year i couldnt get out of the chair, now i cant sit still in it !!!!!
I am enjoying listening to the daily videos again, its really helping me refocus.
Todays food was a banana and apricots before gym, lunch was gorgeous ham and poached egg with tomatoe, and dinner tonight is pork steak with spinach cauliflower brocoli and carrots followed by strawberrys........AND I FEEL SO GOOD !!!!!!!!!
I hope you all had a great bank holiday weekend and a fantastic start to your week, remember keep it in the day, forget them damn scales, and my trainer at the gym today told me to stop wearing such baggy clothes, my tee shirt shoulder was half way down my arm...... she said throw them away and wear smaller ones, stop hiding, and I reckon she is right , I have put my scales away again, and taking it on how my clothes feel and to be honest they are hanging off me, my skirts are tripping me up as i always wear long flowy at the bottom skirts and they are hanging so low i am nearly going flying !!!!!! Maybe time to buy calf length skirts instead of to my ankles to cover me !!!!!!
So lots to think about to take me forward to a slimmer fitter and healthier future, I have got to start thinking more like a 'just a bit bigger than normal' person rather than a morbidly grossly obese person that i was!!!!!!
Thanks everyone for all your continued support, you are all wonderful , I am now going out for a half hour walk around the village, i have so much energy how brilliant is that feeling !!!

Sue xx

I have just watched day 1 video again, and today I am going to eat slowly, drink 2 litres of water, eat whole natural bright coloured foods, cut out stimulants, eat small portions, go on my exercise bike for 15 mins and use the gym ball for 15 minutes and walk as much as I can.
I have dinner for the family already cooking, its gammon with carrot and onion nicely simmering in the slowcooker, and will have that with spinach, marrow, green beans and ovenroasted peppers, mushrooms and red onions, so lots of colours all natural and real food. I will do a couple of potatoe dishes for the rest of the family.
I hope you are all having a lovely bank holiday weekend, great times with people you love, lots of laughter and wonderful food to keep us all on course to our final destination of being the best we can be.
Much love to all
Sue xxx

I have decided to start day 1 again tomorrow, I feel i have been drifting , and the weight isnt comming off like i would like it too, its very slow now and I am still around the 17 stone mark, so I still hve a very long way to go .
I have lost 10stone 3lb since last Sept the 28th, so i know i have done really well, and even my daughter said to me today mum you just look like a bit bigger than normal person now, you have just shrunk and no one would look at you and say you are huge anymore!!!! and I have gone from a size 36 to a size 22...... but I feel because I havnt worked the programme for a good few months now, although I use the tools every single day and they are such a huge way of life for me now, I need to get some more oomph and its Petes magic that I need to take me to my final destination, a wonderful size 16 is my dream!!!
I think why my weight loss has slowed up a lot is obvously i lost that weight at more than about a stone a month, and also although i am now going to the gym and walking and doing more, i am going out more and that is involving eating out a lot more, I always have the protein , either fish or steak with salad or vegetables, i never have a starter or a desert and I never eat bread or potatoes, but the portions are bigger than I would do at home and so I need to get my portion control back , and if it means not going out so much for a while again then so be it, although i am just so enjoying having such a lovely social life, its all so new to me and i really never want to be in at the moment.
I spent the last nearly 20 years not wanting to ever go out, and now i am totally the opposite, and I have had one of the best summers of my life, living life totally to the full and loving every minute and it will just get better and better every step closer to my final destination and I know I am on the last part of my journey..... I just want to pick up a bit of speed again now.... and the only place i know how to do that is here with Pete and the gang and the 21 day programme.
So I am back in the fold once again, with my lovely online family.... I look forward to blogging every day again and with Petes videos, and the love and support of everyone here we cannot fail to more along our journey to where we want to be.
Have a great Bank Holiday Sunday and Monday girls, and I will see you at my Day 1 again tomorrow,

goodnight and godbless
Sue xxx

I have just cleared my car out ready to take to the valet place, and I had one of the 'moments', I came across my fold up walking stick under one of the seats, and it hit me like a ton of bricks, the person I used to be, before petecohen.tv. I had a few tears for that lady, i felt her pain again so deeply, I felt her desperation and humiliation and such shame, it washed over me like a huge wave and I have just got to blogg this out as I need to let those feelings go again, please bear with me, or ignore this blogg if you are bored with my story by now as many of you must be.
I was on my way to 28 stone..... I hardly left the house, I have rails all around the house that i had to drag myself along on as my 5'3 frame wasnt strong enough to carry so much weight. I was recovering from major cancer surgery too, and have massive scarring across my middle body, so i was in a dark scary and lonely place.I couldnt find any clothes to fit me, I had about 2 outfits i wore to threadbare,and kept washing them, I hated having to go out, and needed a stick just from the car to the front door, if i had to go to the shop or bank etc i would drive for ages to get a place as close as i could get to park, i would shop at midnight so not many people saw me, i hated the jeers and nastyness of people and the staring , little chidren would stare and parents would look terrified of what they would say, teenagers would mock and shout obscenities and fall about laughing, adults would stare and sneer and snigger. Looking back I wonder how on earth i got up every day , run my business, still cared for my family etc, when putting one leg out of bed was enough to get me into a cold sweat. Just holding that walking stick today took me right back into that body and mindset again, and sent a shudder right through me.
What a difference a year makes, what a difference Pete Cohen makes........ Pete had faith in me ages before I had faith in myself, Pete told me I can do this and I was worth it, Pete told me to be exceptional and as focused on my weight loss journey as I am in being a good mum and nan, and businesswoman. So I did , because I totally trust him and although I am old enough to be Petes mum I just knew this man is a genius in the insane world that is food addiction and comfort eating and low self esteem. God was certainly looking after me the day he brought Pete into my life, as i shudder again to think where I would be now if I hadnt made that journey to London to see Pete , it dosnt bear thinking about !!!
I am going to take that walking stick to a charity shop today as it could do someone a good turn...... that is another milestone for me actually getting rid of my walking stick that was my only way of getting from A to B for many years.
Today.... just under 11 months on from my lightbulb moment last Sept 28th following the most powerful online session with Pete, when he told us to be Exceptional weight loss atheletes, I am over 10stone lighter, I am a size 22 from a size 36, I go to they gym twice a week for a whole hour session, I have a exercise bike at home i go on most days and a gym ball I use too, I can walk for ages without sitting down, I can get in and out of the bath now, I can do my own hair, I can shop till I drop, I can do my own garden and housework, I am living the life I should be living, going to lots of places, knowing i can sit on normal seats and get in between tables and normal gaps, I have had my first romantic relationship in 14 years, I felt like a teenager again, I cant stop buying clothes, modern brightly coloured clothes, I have respect for myself again, and that itself is priceless, I am not sitting in my armchair day and night obsessing over my family and what food to buy and cook next, I am out there living , in this wonderful world again...... and its all because Pete told me I could do it.... and i believed him !!!!!
I still have a way to go , about another 6 stone, and I dont doubt for one second that glorious day will come, in the not too distant future when I am a size 16..... my only regret is petecohen.tv was not around when I was much younger.
When I take my stick to the shop today, its saying goodbye to the lady who was always dressed in black, and hid under a black shawl as i didnt have a coat tht would fit me. I would throw that shawl around me to hide me from the world , but of course it never did, its saying goodbye to the lady who loved everyone so much and never loved herself, its saying goodby to the lady who had soaked up so much heartache and pain over the years and food was my only way of dealing with it, and today with Pete and all you amazing bloggers by my side, as you all have been through this whole amazing journey so far, we are walking arm in arm, Petes army to a brighter and happier and healthier and slimmer future for each and every one of us,
We CAN DO THIS AND WE WILL SUCCEED !!!! God bless you all
A very emotional but totally happy Sue xxxx

I never thought in a million years i would ever say these words ' I am thoroughly enjoying going to the gym'...... I go twice a week, on a Monday i do the fat burning machines and a Wednesday its the weights for the muscle to help with the loads and loads of saggy skin that is appearing everywhere, today I done 15 mins exercise bike,10 mins hand cycle ( I really struggle with that as my back is very weak from my curved spine and arthritis), then 10 mins cross trainer and 20 mins on the treadmill, then the exercise ball for another 10 minutes so for a lady who had walking sticks and has rails around the house that i used to use to get around i dont think i am doing too bad.
Its taken me a few weeks to get my energy levels up with the eating as its such a vicious circle, if i eat more my weight plateaus if i eat less i am dizzy at the gym and that is no good either, but i think i have got it sorted, i eat a banana and some nuts the evening before the gym, and a small bowl of porridge the morning i go to the gym in fact today i ate it on the way as i leave home at 7.30 for my 8-9 session, and that really did do the trick, my trainer said she has seen a big improvement since i have eaten breakfast before i go , so that is all good.
My legs ache, in fact I am still aching now after a nice soak but I am just so enjoying it and I had a huge fear of the gym and exercise so another wonderful life changing thing that has happened since joining petecohen.tv
Who would of thought it , me in leggins, a tee shirt, trainers and my hair up in a scrunchy ha ha ha , life is beginning for me at nearly 59.......... I LOVE EVERY SECOND

From a smiling and happy Sue here in rainy dreary norfolk, i hope you all have a brilliant start to your week too

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I am not having the best weekend, its a year ago since we lost our beloved Benny Boy, my beatuful best friend , my chocolate lab. , so i have been pretty teary for the last couple of days, reliving the day minute by minute. So my emotions have been all over the place but no thoughts of sugar or carbs or takeaways comming in my mind, what a difference a year makes on petecohen.tv!!!
Also I have decided to cool things off with my 'young man' I feel , and have felt for a while its too one sided , we are like chalk and cheese, he has lived a life that is very much the long suffering wife indoors, he was married for 35 years then the wife decided she didnt love him anymore once the children were grown and gone and asked him to leave, so he was either at sea or in the pub or the bookies, and that is such a way of life for him its not my way. He has never had a car and cant drive so its down to me to do all the driving, he is a smoker and a huge drinker on the nights i dont see him and i found myself wanting to go there just to keep him out of the pubs and bars, to 'save him', and he dosnt want saving!!!! He has worked at sea since he was 16 and all he has to show for it is a holiday caravan he lives in on a holiday park, he has no ambition to better himself, by his own admission he has drunk and gambled the money away and again, i have a lovely property all paid for and i have never stopped trying to better myself,again chalk and cheese. BUT HE HAS REALLY REALLY HELPED ME ON SO MANY LEVELS, and I dont regret a moment, but the niggles are creaping in and i dont want to let that interfere with my frame of mind as I know I could be entering into dangerous territory where my eating is concerned, and nothing and no one is worth that happening to me again.
So all in all not the best weekend but I am proud that I am being true to myself and what is important to me..... it would be so easy to have that old 'fat thinking' kick in and feel oh well at least he wants me at my size, he is a younger and fit man, and at least he wants me so it will do!!! No it wont do I deserve someone who will take me to the theatre or a show or to a nice restaurant or at least someone who can come and pick me up to go out for the evening. There have been some really really lovely times we have shared, and he truly came into my life at the right time, so no regrets whatsoever, and the sad thing is he didnt have a clue there was anything wrong with 'us'. but again the man is from mars happens and when I tried to talk to him he calls it 'nagging' so again, chalk and cheese!!!
I have never finished a relationship before, always made it 'do' untill it was unbareable, so again I am holding my head up and saying I am a stronger, more honest, and empowered woman thanks to petecohen.tv, and the journey i have been on.
Thankyou for allowing me to off load, I am going out for a carvery shortly with my lovely family, I will choose the meat and veg, I will eat slowly, savouring every mouthful and I will stop when I am full.
I am still amazed at the person I am today thanks to petecohen.tv, that I have gone through the intense emotion of the last 48 hours and not popped a crumb of comfort food in my mouth..... I love this programme and all you lovely bloggers for always being there for me.
A very sad but also very proud Sue xxxxx

How different these summer school holidays are from previous years, I am just having the best time ever. Yesterday I had my 2 grandaughters stay, our day started at 8am when the youngest was dropped of by my son, I had breakfast waiting for them both as they arrived, my son then went off to work and our fun started. we went to pick up my oldest one, and off we went to town, we walked up and down and round and round, clothes shops, market, charity shops ( they look for designer clothes), make up shops, non stop from 10 am.... we stopped for lunch at 1 and how great was it that i can go in any cafe or restaurant now and know the seat will hold me, and I can get in between tables without knocking everyone flying when I was 10 stone heavier!!! Then more walking and more shopping, book shops, accessory shops, dept stores, then home for a lovely meal, followed by pampering, french manicures and pedicures, facepaks, make up, hair lots of giggles and mayhem, then 'you tubing' some old classics that i used to play all the time when they were tiny, Michael Buble, Westlife, Boyzone so we finished a perfect day with a sing song, dancing and falling around laughing, till we all fell into bed exhausted and so happy. What a contrast to past few summer holidays when I was so huge and exhausted all the time, I couldnt get out of the armchair, I couldnt walk and would sit in the car so my daughter or son had to take the kids places while i sat and hated myself that i couldnt manage to go with them, I would order in takeaways as I darent risk going to a restaurant incase i couldnt get between the tables and I couldnt risk the seats holding my nearly 28 stone!!
My girls got up this morning still buzzing from such a special time with nanny, and the little one said ' when can i stay again nanny please'............... how wonderful.
So the queen of the big dinners, is now the shopping queen, not for food but for clothes and beauty stuff, and dinner is just such a secondary thing with me now, now I am buying food, in normal amounts so normal size portions for everyone, not over hanging the dinner plate piled like a mountain like before. I truly see food as medicine to keep us well and healthy and getting slimmer and fitter, obviously its still incredibly pleasureable, last night we had fillet steak, mushrooms, tomatoes, spinach and corn, the girls had new potatoes with theirs , i just had the steak and veg and i ate it slowly, automatically putting my knife and fork down, chewing slowly , savouring every mouthful, and I was totally satisfied and nourished. Girls had a treat of strawberrys dippedin melted chocolate, i just had strawberrys, and i dont feel i am missing out on ANYTHING.
This evening as I am not cooking for family , my 'young man' ha ha for want of a better phrase, is cooking for me, he is doing either lamb or pork on the bbq and served with salad, he does the most perfect whole healthy meals now, I think before we met he was a burger and chips or any food thats fatty tasty and quick, now he is enjoying eating healthier although i dont doubt for a second on the nights i dont see him he is straight to the takeaway, but he dosnt need to worry as he does a physical job so burns off, but he totally understands the journey i am on and encourages me all the way which is brilliant. I dont see this relationship progressing any further as a lot of things are not compatable, but again I have just had the best few months in years, and he has helped my confidence just more than I could ever say. Icant remember the last time I watched the soaps or my usual addiction stuff on telly, I am just too busy living, and there are a lot of years Ihave to make up for, when all i done was sit, eat, watch telly, and obsess over food, family and my size!!!!!
So once again, thankyou Pete for everything

Love from a very busy Sue here in Norfolk xxxxxx

Today has been a FABULOUS DAY..... I went to town with my daughter and grandaughter and was delighted to see all the summer sales had started.... like all of us I do like a bargain..... and FOR THE FIRST TIME IN DONKEYS YEARS I TRIED CLOTHES ON IN A CHANGING ROOM!!!!!!!!
This is not a huge thing for most people but when I started petecohen.tv on Day 1 i was hardly able to sqeeze myself into a very generous size 36!!!! I had to buy 2nd had clothes online, as nothing in the high street went anywere near me, and I spent most of my life in baggy nightshirts hardly able to leave the house as i was nearly 28 stone on a 5'3 frame, riddled with arthiritis and recovering from major cancer surgery too, so every day I was in so much pain i didnt know where to put myself!!! I would drive out at midnight to do banking in the nightsave so I didnt get the micky taken out of me, or crawl around a supermarket hanging over the trolly for support just to pick u a few essentials, but done all my shopping online...... So TODAY.... THIS WONDERFUL DAY...... I SHOPPED SOLID FOR 4 HOURS, DIDNT HAVE TO SIT DOWN ONCE....... I GOT INTO A SIZE 22 FROM BHS A SHOP I WOULD NEVER HAVE DREAMT OF EVER BUYING IN.... I CAME AWAY FROM ANN HARVEYS WITH 2 CARRIER BAGS FULL OF SIZE 22'S........... AND BRIGHT BRIGHT LOVELY SUMMER COLOURS, NOT THE BLACKS AND BROWNS FROM PRE petecohen.tv........
I stlll have a long way to go , I will be 5 stone lighter, by my birthday in February, and then i will be a size 16 which is the size that dreams were only made of before I joined Pete and his merry band of bloggers.
Today my daughter and grandaughter got tired before I did, and virtually dragged me back to the school screaming and shouting that i had more shopping to do !!!!
So if anyone is wobbling, or weebling or struggling take faith from this entry, and its simple as can be ....... dont just lose weight, become EXCEPTIONAL at losing weight, be as EXCEPTIONAL at losing weight as you are at loving your family and caring for them, or as you are in your relationship and loving your partner, or your work, apply that steely determination that nothing and no one will get in your way of being the best you can be....... and all your dreams will come true as mine are on a daily basis.
Thankyou Pete, my friend and hero, thankyou bloggers for always being there, This is the ONLY weight loss system you will ever have to do ever ever again.
Load of love and a very happy size 22 Sue here in Norfolk
Sue xxxxxx

Hi everyone, I couldnt let today pass without sharing this with my lovely online family....... I went to Boots to get an acurate weight reading and I am 17.2 on my Day 1 on petecohen.tv i was 27.3.......... oh my word and what a journey it has been, and how so much my life has changed beyond all recognition.
Considering i wobbled and weebled through the whole of my first year on here, then suddenly last Sept 28th after the most incredible online course with Pete, it suddenly clicked into place, when Pete said ' think of something you are really really good at, like a career or being a mum etc', and I know I give 100percent to my family and my work. then he said ' why not apply the same energy and dedication to yourself and your weight loss journey' AND SOMETHING CLICKED INSIDE ME...... I wanted to be EXCEPTIONAL at weightloss, I wanted to be the best I could be at taking care of me,when my whole life had dedicated to caring for others....... and since that amazing lifechanging online session, i hve got fitter, stronger, healthier slimmer happier and just a totally different Sue than the one pre petecohen.tv.
I am now in a size 24 clothes, i was a 36 , i couldnt walk unaided not even around the house, i had to be helped out of a chair and was housebound more or less, now i am never home!!!! I enjoy the gym, I am havng a social life, i am loving buying clothes in normal shops,
I now dont obsess about dinners and shopping for food, i obsess about clothes and hair and makeup.......... i celebrated today with a new hairdo, and came home and ate salmon salad for lunch, before if i wanted to celebrate it would have definately involved, pastries, takeaways, bakeries and sweetshops!!!!!!!!
I am nearly 60 years old and have met a lovely man who is 51 and enjoying my first romance in 14 years!!!!..... he encourages my all the way , cooks lovely healthy meals for me, walks along the beach with me and praises me for every 1lb i lose!!!! I just cannot believe how happy I am , after years of pure pain and misery of carrying close to 28 stone around on a 5'3 frame.
THANKYOU PETE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME, YOU ARE MY LIFESAVER, MY HERO , MY FRIEND.
THANKYOU BLOGGERS FOR HELPING ME THROUGH THE FIRST DARK DAYS, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, AND I LOVE YOU ALL.
I am so thankful that I went to London to see Pete when I did, and if anyone is struggling out there, never ever ever give up..... blogging is THE WAY to beat our demons and Pete is THE MAN to restore us to sanity in the mad mad world of emotional and comfort eating, and of course dieting .
A happy, elated and very hypo Sue , here in Norfolk
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Morning everyone
Just thought I would pop in and say that I have actually found a gym I like and the people couldnt be more helpful. I tried 2 through the doctors referall scheme, and this one I avoided as its in a huge leisure centre right in the middle of the sea front, and parking at this time of year is a nightmare, but I thought I would go along and see them, and I am so glad i did as the fitness trainers there are slightly more mature than other places and really encouraging and patient, so today I done the exercise bike, the hand bike, about 6 different weight machines working on my upper body as i have a weakness from a scoliosis of the spine, also the exercise ball for legs, a cross trainer, and a TRX which i thought was really really good, so simple yet I could really feel the muscles working, then finishing off on the exercise bike again to get my heart rate down slowly...... wow i feel really really good and at last I am so happy to say I actually enjoyed going to the gym and not dreading it. I have booked my sessions for 8 am Mondays and Wednesdays so that I can park easy and get in and out before my working day starts and it gets busy there, but I am delighted that I have actually found somewhere i am happy with, and so its proof again that if we want something bad enough, just keep doing the do and looking for somewhere that is right for us!!!
When I went for my induction there last week he told me i must increase my complex carbs if i am going to work out , so I have started eating porridge and a very small amount of wholegrain rice with lunch, and I am still cutting out bread and potatoes at my evening meal.But they were so thorough at my induction they said they are not happy taking me on as my food intake was too low for me to safely train at the gym, so I have taken their advise and introduced those carbs in small amounts.
Yeah the lady who needed walking sticks to walk, rails to help me walk around the house and help getting up out of the chair is happily working out with lots of other people and not in the slightest bit self conscious, because i know i am doing everything in my power to continue being a EXCEPTIONAL weight loss ATHELETE.
Love and hugs to you all
Sue xxxxx

Hi Everyone
Just wanted to pop in and say I am now under 18stone, this morning i am 17.11..... on day 1 of petecohen.tv I was 27.3........ so in no time at all there will be 10 stone less of me.
There is never a day goes past that i dont thankgod for me finding Pete when I did. When I first went to see Pete in London I was crippled, couldnt walk unaided, even around the house, I was in a terrible dark and scary place, housebound more or less, would do banking in the dark, shopping at midnight so not to be ridiculed, and now i am out and about and holding my head up because Pete told me the first time i ever saw him ' You deserve a place in this world' and ' You are worth it' Thankyou Pete from the bottom of my heart.
I have gone from a size 36 to a size 24, I am living a life where food is not my total focus, I now eat to keep myself well and that is so important as i am also now 5 years cancer free too , in fact sometimes i am so busy living that i forget to eat!!! This is from the woman who was queen of the big dinners, and lived to cook eat and feed everyone!!!!
I just wanted to pop in, and if anyone is struggling please know its only a wobble, i wobbled through my first few months of petecohen.tv and the turning point for me was when Pete said if we are going to do this programme, why just do it why not be a EXCEPTIONAL weight loss ATHELETE, and that was exactly who I wanted to be and who I am !!! nearly 10 stone weight loss in 10 months!!! and YOU can be exceptional if you want it bad enough!!!!
My love and total respect to Pete, and all you bloggers for supporting me to get me to this amazing place.... I will keep you updated as my heart is always with this community and all the amazing friends I have made through it too.
I am going up to the lovely North Norfolk coast this weekend, a romantic break..... omg who would ever have thought that, my last romance was 14 years ago, so to have met someone who is making me happy, making me laugh a lot and making me feel special is totally incredible, and again would never have happened if i was still hiding indoors and unable to move out of the chair !!!!!!!!
God bless you all
Sue xxx

Thats it i have done it, 8STONE LESS OF ME SINCE MY DAY ONE ON THIS FABULOUS PROGRAMME!!!!! how great is that, my life has changed beyond all belief, i am fitter and healthier than i have been my whole adult life thanks to my fabulous nutrient rich meals i now LOVE!!! THANK YOU Pete AND ALL THE GANG, THIS WOULD NEVER EVER OF HAPPENED WITHOUT YOU ALL!!!!
Today I have been to buy an exercise bike, the one with the arm movements too, its for me and my grandson to share, i got it off ebay, total bargain for just £30, as new condition, I for the first time ever didnt feel embarrassed going to someones house, no one looked at me like i had 2 heads, as used to happen regularly, the chap kindly put it in the boot of my car for me, and ready for this??? I had the strength to get it out and carry it indoors...... all on my own, no help from anyone..... so i am getting fitter and stronger everyday from moving so much more and walking a lot, what a far far cry from how i was before petecohen.tv when i had to go one stair at a time, pulling myself up on hand rails to get upstairs, and gasping for breath and praying i get to the top without having a heart attack, that sounds so dramatic and far fetched, but i can assure you thats exactly how i was , a real sorry state, then of course after any activity like that I would have had to reward myself, or comfort myself with a nice doorstep sandwich... that is the lunacy of comfort eating, THANK GOD I HAVE BEEN SET FREE !!!
So another milestone today 8stone less of me, AND I FEEL GOOD, SO GOOD, I FEEL GOOD!!!
I hope you are achieving wonderful things every day as i am , the simplest of things like going to buy that bike, not sending someone else to do things for me rather than see the shock on peoples faces, is such such a glorious feeling, and i cannot tell you just how happy I am right now!!
love and hugs to everyone, have a great weekend , the sun is shining lets hope the weekend stays nice.
Sue in sunny Norfolk xxxxxx

Today more great things happened, not unusual happenings for most people, but more great 'firsts' for me........ TODAY i bought a lovely top for my forthcomming holiday in a size 24 !!!!!! and it fits beautifully, and in the Sale too, for half price so even better!!! ME IN A SIZE 24.... I WAS A SIZE 36 STREATCHED TO BURSTING.... Me walking into a store that normal size people buy clothes in and just getting something off the rail OH MY WORD, AND IN A COLOUR I LOVE, AND IN A STYLE I LOVE, NOT JUST ANY OLD THING JUST BECAUSE IT ACTUALLY FITTED ME....... this is stuff my dreams have been of for such a very very long time !!!
Today when my daughter and i went shopping there were No disabled extra wide bays, so i drove into a normal parking bay, with cars either side of me and hey presto, we were both able to get out of the car with no huffing and puffing to get through the gap THIS IS STUFF I JUST COULD NEVER EVER ATTEMPT BEFORE!!!!
Tonight i decided to stand on a stall to hang curtains in my grandsons bedroom, i was meant to wait for my friend to come and put them up for me on Saturday, but i thought 'No I AM GOING TO DO THIS, AFTER ALL I AM JUST A BIT BIGGER THAN NORMAL NOW!!!!' AND I DONE IT, THE STALL HELD MY WEIGHT, DIDNT EVEN GROAN , I managed to stretch up to hook the curtains, without too much dire pain, so HOW GREAT IS THAT, before petecohen.tv and for a long time after i joined i couldnt even raise my arms high enough to was my own hair, now i dont need a hairdresser to come as i used to have twice a week just to keep my hair clean, I CAN WASH MY HAIR WITH EASE, AND I HUNG HEAVY LINED CURTAINS ALL ON MY OWN !!!! I am so happy at doing normal things, that normal size and weight people take so for granted, I LOVE this programme AND EVERYONE WHO IS A PART OF IT.
Love and hugs to everyone on this special day that is Petes Birthday, I hope wherever he is and whatever he is doing he is having the Best time ever, because if anyone ever deserves it, our main man does !!!!!
Sue xxxx

I have had a day of it, but not once wanted to eat on it... a day like today would of sent me on a right carb feast or sugar hunt, but not anymore thank god.
I was due to go to pick my daughter up to take her to college, when she phoned and calmly said 'Mum could you take me to hospital please, my icd ( pacemaker) has been beeping and they need me to go in to Cardiac Care immediately' My heart jumped into my mouth, i felt sick and jumped in the car. What had happened was she could hear a little beep every so often , she thought one of the kids phones were bleeping, but her husband said to her ' Its comming from you', she phoned her technician who said to come in immediately as one of the wires may have come away from her heart, in which case should her heart go into any arythmia she wouldnt be safe, so off we went once again on the 20mile trip to hospital, and all the way there i was praying to myself ' please let her be safe, please dont let her heart need pacing!! I was a very long long drive as i was so anxious to get her there, !!! Luckily it wasnt one of the leads it was the battery life is getting low, so she is now booked in for a unit change during half term... this time they are going to fit her with one of the new devices that can be monitored by a micro chip, direct to the technician, she is ideal candidate for that as sheis a busy young mum, otherwise fit and healthy, and every time she gets a episode we are back and forwards to find out what has happened, but with the new one they can call her in if they have to but take readings 24 hours so they know whats going on, how amazing and clever is that, and how far they have come since her 2 cardiac arrests just 9 years ago !! So she is booked in for 3 weeks today , just overnight.
All that panic of when it first happened come flooding back , all that terror of seeing my child drop at my feet and stop breathng, all that horror of being terrified she would black out again and not wake up, in an instant it all is vivid and oh so real again !!!! The differnece now is how i cope, i didnt feel the need to calm myself with food, i didnt feel the need to suffocate my fear with milky drinks and bars of sugary stuff, i dealt with it by feeling the anxiety, knowing she is in the best possible hands, and living through the trauma till the calm comes again!!!!!! THIS IS A VERY VERY DIFFERENT SUE THANK GOD !!!!
Thank god for all these advancements in the medical world, it totally baffles me what amazing things they can do these days.
So i am sorry i havnt replied for the last few days, i will catch up wth the bloggs I just wanted to say i am still here , still going strong, still doing the do, and still being exceptional in every way i can be !!!
Love and hugs to one and all
A very relieved and thankful Sue xxxx

This morning i received my pension forcast..... oh my word its official iam nearly a O.A.P. I dont get it at 60 as my birth year just missed out on that I am getting mine at 62, its going to be £99.52.!!!! I have worked every day since i was 15 and even through having 2 children, but thats it, what it amounts to, and to be honest it would hardly pay the utilitys let alone run a car and buy food, how on earth do pensioners manage???? Thats why my best friend Mary who is 72 is still working as a cleaner, and its a disgrace when people have worked so hard all their lives... but there you go i am not going to get on my soapbox or else it could get political and judgemental about how some people cream of the state as their god given right to have loads of kids with no income......SO I WILL END MY RANT NOW !!!!
Made me think though, I did pay into a private pension for a lot of years, and it wasnt doing anything much so i cashed it in as i couldnt afford the £200 a month premiums when i sold my last business..... that pays out at £43 a month on one, and £40 a quarter on the other, so not many exotic holidays for me on the horizon...... just keep on working i guess, good job i have a good active brain that allows me to do just that, what if i didnt, dosnt bear thinking about really !!!
This weekend a dear friend of mine is decorating my best room for me, i am going to use it as a therapy room when i start my lifecoaching. I have all my qualifications and just never had myself right before, so its all systems go and i am going to start advertising around the end of june when i return from holiday, I know i have a lot to offer people who are struggling with food and drink issues, I understand fully where they are comming from, and yes i will stil be large but i am aiming to be around 10 stone off by then, so I am a work in progress and that is reassuring to any would be clients...... watch this space. I have de personalised the room, taken all photos down etc i am doing the walls a beautiful 'early dawn' colour in a reflective paint as the room is quite dark, and its going to look gorgeous, !!!!!
So my dreams are comming true, its what i have always wanted to do , and its now just around the corner, thanks to Pete and all you amazing bloggers.
Have a great Saturday, and enjoy your day whatever you are doing.
Love and hugs Sue xxxxx