Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Not blogged in a long time as life is so busy at work, I'm not getting in till 9pm.

We are going through another fundamentla service review @ work and I am finding it very stressful. Remember last year, the saga about my 2 promotions? Well now our Team is too top-heavy management-wise. When I took the job it was meant to be 90% field based & 10% mgmt. Well 9 staff and 2 teams later, and it's probably exactly the other way round.

So it looks like I'm doing nothing as I have no tnglibe 'output' (except for keeping a front-line service running, happy and also making money on project funded work for our team at weekends)

I feel like I have to justify the job that they gave ME! Onesthat I have won 2 service delivery awards for! Yesterday I worked 6:40 to 8:15 & went straight for a curry & haf a bottle of wine with my best friend.

Yesterday's food was so appalling I have to note it down;
B - yogurt
choc uffin (birthday cakes at work)
L - spanish omelette & salad
Bar of fruit & nut (employee had a rear-ender near work and I went to check she was ok & driver her back)
Choc chip muffin (from B'day cakes still on desk in eyesight)
Prawn cocktail crisps
slice of victoria sponge cake (from the lady I am helping with weekend project work by supplying 4 men and jetwashes)
2 buiscuits
D - shared mushroom byriani, chana masala, sag paneer veg curry & chapati)
Orange segments & a 'wafer thin mint'

This morning I am so bloated I can feel my chub brushing my arms when I walk. I'm so disgusted with myself.

It's my Birthday on weds (NO I am not bringing in cakes to the office!) and I have a beautiful maxi dress I want to wear but that isn't enough to get ma back on track. I feel like I am giving up and putting work first

Oh and 1/2 bottle of red wine(actually proud of this one as last year this would have been 1-2 bottles ona school night, so my stress drinking has turned to eating)

I won'r give up, I need a new job. I need to be happy at work as I spend the majority of my time there. I know I am exceptional at what I do and I know that I am an exceptional 'people person'. I hope that I am intelligent enough to see all these signs of stress re-emerging and can develop better ways of coping that last time (I'm confident I will)

ON TOP of this I have a 25 year old splinter in my leg trying to emerge. I was pushed along a bench when I ws 10 at school and the nurse took out about 1.5 incges of wood. 3 Years later I hd another 1/2 in com e out and now, in the same place , there is a lump and an angry red spot which hurts. The Dr sent me for an x-ray on Weds but I was turned away as I need an ultrsound. I have to phone for an appt this morning.

I don't want to sound melodramatic, but I want this thing out of my leg. I get bad water retention (worse inthat leg) and I expect having a foreign body in it isn't helping.

Sorry for the essay - I have to blog these feelings out if I stand half a chance of getting back into the alfalfa zone.

Sezza

Argh. I Have booked this week to get my dissertatin finshed.

So far I have put the Lamb in for dinner (wonderful slow roasted Nigella recipe), looked for Uni memory stick, found memory stick, watched another episode of 'cake boss', had a good brain-boosting breakfast, drank 2 cups of green tea, had lots of nervous bowel movements and blogged on here.

My aim is to get the introduction wrapped up and e-mailed to my project supervisor. Actually I may start calling it a project because the work dissertatin makes my gag reflex twang.

Wish me luck, I have booked a 2 night spa break on Friday afternoon as a treat for finishing......

Roll on lunch, yet another distraction!

Hi Peeps

Just wanted to say Hi and to vent my frustration that everytime I log onto the Journals page, my IE keeps freezing. It doesn't happen on any other page and I realise now this is why I have dropped out of Journalling. I could Journal my own, but then it freezes when I want to read others' journals & comments added to mine.

I am on Facebook if we aren't already 'friends'. Pls feel free to add (say who you are!).

I will catch up with you all soon, but I'm finding this technical hitch a bit frustrating.

Have a Duck-free Weekend - I intend to!

Sezza

It's been a while since blogging - not ure why, but I have been extremely busy. I went back to my nutritionist over a week ago for a follow-up. My intollerance scores had imroved so much, I am now allowed to have skimmed milk. Garlic and onion scores had not budged which is worrying, but could have been because I haven't been able to completely eliminate them. Or it could be a permanent thing :(

I'm feeling better, looking trimmer and I have loads of energy. I know that you are what you eat, but I can't beieve how quickly you can turn yourself around from eating right.

Right, must catch up with the journals.....

Today was a lovely day at work. Two colleagues asked if Ihad lost weight and said my waist looked tiny. Even though I have a bloaty PMT belly!

I left work at 4pm (I could get REALLY used to this!) and went to Hyde Park to do a 7k walikingTimed Trial . The park was beautiful, very spring-like and the air was so fresh. We were given a champneys reviving foot soak sachet at the end and I'm soaking my battered tootsies whilst watching Biggest Loser.

I think I did the 7k in 1hr 4mins, but they are e-mailing us tomorrow with final results. I came 4th out of about 14. And the pain in my left hip that I used to get when walking, has gone.

All in all a very good day.

Just done an updated nutrition score (inspired by Mandy!) and the results are outstanding.

I have completely cut out dairy, yeast, sugar, wheat & a few veges that don't agree and my health score has gone from 41.2 to 72.5. My BMI has reduced from 29.5 to 28.2

I feel amazing , and these new scores are proof!

I have just been for a 5k walk in this beautiful sunshine with my friend. I don't think I've done any formal exercise since before Christmas. I have so much energy.

Last night was great. Turkish food was so diet friendly. I had Pazola - 4 grilled lamb chops with rice & salad. Drank vodka & soda, had a little too many and had to go home before the night ended - but woke headache free and raring to go.

It still amazes me that I'm not bothered counting/pointing anything, drinking vodka and still losing weight because I'm cutting out the stuff that conflicts with my body.

Today is a doing day - I have chicken & red lentil soup on the go for work, loads of washing lining up to be put away/washed or ironed, hoovering and decluttering the bedroom for the decorator.

I've packed a suitcase of work clothies in case it gets too much and I have to sta round my folks' house.

Right, must push on!

Enjoy the glorious weather (unless you're under a cloud of dust)

Didn't blog yesterday as I went straight from work to pub & then to Spitalfirlds/commercial St area.

Met up with my sister & it was so lovely to see her. She took us to a really cool pub - Commercial Tavern, which had the same magic roundabut lantern that I had when I was younger in my bedroom.

I've decided to give up going to my slimming club. I'm not really following their diet and I can weigh in at home as my scales area accurate. Ooh they say 11st this morning....just 1/2 to go and then I'm back in the 10s.

Off out tonight to a turkish restaurant. Contemplating not going as I know I'll get hassle for not drinking. Had a chat with Boy about it and he's promised not to mention my nutritionist. He said he as proud of me last night for being so focused. And he says I'm the best I've been in 8 years (whatever that means!) but he is impressed with my energy levels and happiness.

I'm feeling very chipper this morning and ready to get on with my dissertation.

Still not sure about tonight. I'll make a decision later. I don't know what it is about me that makes people think they can start to analyse me or take the micky out of my food. I suppose I have been diet obsessed. And I'm a vey honest, open person. Last Saturday I didn't mention food, diet - other people brought it up. I need to develop a thicker skin or just tell them to shut the duck up.

I thought I'd never get to blog today as my wireless went. No idea what I did, but a few hours later and I'm back in action.

I'm trying sunnyvale rye sourdough bread tonight and it is delisious toasted with olivio on it. Don't know why I didn't think if vegetable spread before but it IS something I can have.

Last night's event evening with Joanna Hall went well and I won some beauty goodies in the raffle. I also booked on a walking spa break with her in July - I had done one about 18 months ago and it was brilliant. I think it's just what I need to get back into walking again. I have my first timed trial on monday!

Tonight I'm packing up the bedroom as the Boyf has decided he can't take the bare floorboards with offcuts of carpet and lilac walls any more! It will take 6 days and the decorator starts Monday.

Today was a great day at work. This homeopathic remedy really works and today, 2 major mess-ups came to light and I reacted in a completely calm , productive and slightly detatched mannor. I'm realised when I got home how little it bothered me.

Anyway, back to bagging up clothes.....

Sezza

Day 14 is here and I can't believe I have blogged everyday for 14 days straight.

Last night I had a really early night as I was very tired. Not sure if the decorators are about to turn up or if it was the early start yesterday on Dg Poo Patrol (I have the BEST job!)

The early night has done me good and I feel totally energised. Just making myself a chicken & avocado salad for lunch.

After work I'm going to London to see Joanna Hall at one of her event evenings at her studio. I've signed up for 4 monthly 7k walks in Hyde Park , starting the 19th.

I am so unfit that even my small walk into work is making me work hard. Can't wait to get the the poit when I am doing 5k walks at the weekend (both days) again.

TTFN Must get to work

I am sooo hungry today. I have eaten lots (of all the right things though) and it could be that I'm PMTie as I'm not sure when I'm due on. I get massive carb cravings and this feels like what it could be.

Got on from work and cooked a chicken for tea and hope to make a stock tonight too.

May go for a quick lie-down first!

Not being happy with being ultra prepared and organised, I set myself a wildcard day today.

I had to eat in the staff canteen to see if I could make my resticted diet work. The result was....I survived....and it tasted nice.

Had a salad bowl of all the salad I can have, along with some mixed beans, nealry had the beetroot cubes but remembered they were too sugary and on my banned list. However had a small spoon of couscous, because I forgot it is a wheat. Anyway I remembered in time and tipped it onto a colleages empty plate!

I'm having a 12:30 lunch at the moment, as i"m leaving wirk at 16:00 (still, yipee). At 13:30 I was a littl eworried I hadn't had enough protein so popped back up and got a take-away portion of roast beef to have with th eleftover salad!

All in all, I survived and i now know I can go to work without a lunchbox

Breakfast was bacon on rye, with a cup of acai & green tea .

Afternoon pick-me-up is a cup of Ginseng tea (as recommended on Pete's nutrition programme (very nice)

I have a friend coming for dinner so I'm making carrot & coriander soup to start, pastry-free flan with asparagus & sweet pot wedges. I hope she likes it, but she is a vege so I'm halfway there - I'll leave out some chill sauce if she needs more flavour.

As an aside, a few colleagues said I looked well and my skin looked 'glowing'.

I've also made a start on my dissertation and I'm xcited about it instead of feeling dread like I had done

better get cooking now.....

Last night we went to the Outback for a friend's 40th. During the week I had printed their menu out and it looked felxible for me.

I drank vodka & soda, asked for a shrimp skewer (which was a main side) for my starter and a fillet steak, wild rice and house salad for main.

The salad came with loads of grated cheese on that I had to work around, and the wild rice was just bog standard rice with onions & pepper (which I'm avoiding) so picked them out.

I really didn't make a fuss, just told the waitress what I wanted and then, when asked by a friend, told him I was just rebooting the system for 3 months.

Well that's when it started - he said 'this must be the 20th diet you've been on'. I calmly explained that I wasn't considereing it a diet as I was eating lots, just cuting out the junk, wheat, sugar etc. He then went on to make out that I was 'a nutter' and an 'obsesive'. my boyfriend even started to get on my case.I said that I wasn't unlike any other normal woman and it is normal to want to look good and be healthy (isn't it?). I wouldn't mind but the couple we were with could both do with the Pete treatment and I felt very attacked for trying to take care of myself.

I had so wanted to go out and have a good time, choose wel from the menu and just relax. I honestly hadn't made a big 'Ican't eat this, I'm special' kind of fuss at all. I wasn't tee total and I ate 2 courses like everyone else.

Had a row with Boyf on way home and generally felt attacked. Also the other girl in the group only eats chicken and chips....and I mean, that is all she has only ever eaten, and no-one called her a nutter!

Anyway I've had cornflakes and I'm off to the cafe with the Boyf and then to my parents' house as he's working there today. I may have a chat with him, just so he understands how I felt, I may not though, as jit all seems forgotten (him and the other bloke were very drunk)

Up early and the Police came round as we were the last people to see the paranoid schizophrenic young lad below us before he stole their TV - we live above a care home and have been woken up consistently by his rants/swearing sessions. I'm just glad he seems to have gone, although he left 2 bibles in our garden!! - must put a lock on the side gate today!

The universe is moving to my rythym now:

Had an oval glass dining table delivered at 08:20 (8-12 slot, what luck!) and I managed to assemble it and turn it over.....The boyf popped back from work to give me a hand and was shocked I'd done it.

My graduataion invite arrived

I lost 1.5lbs at fat club this morning, making a total of 6lbs in 2 weeks and my first 1/2 stone award.

Bought a pretty scarf to celebrate 1st award

I feel utterly amazing - and now listening to Simon & Garfunkel whiltt loading up more albums on my itunes.

Planning on decorating the rest of the flat as soon as we can, so I'm very excited and furiously continuing the decluttering mission.

Hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful weather - I feel unstoppable!

Sezza

Well aren't these 4 day weeks a treat? So glad it is Friday. As promised, I left work around 4pm each day while I adjust to new ways of eating.

The achy limbs are completely gone today and I hope to get a really good night's sleep (in about 10 mins actually, and it's only 21:10!)

Dinner was a hit with the Boyf and was an onion-free shepherds pie with corriander & spinach with sweet potato mash. I grated some cheese on his 2/3rds - I'm not that mean! He really liked the sweet potato mash, bonus!

Tomorrow I'm getting a new oval glass dining table for the bay window and I am so ecxited to be chucking out the wobbly formica IKEA leaf table that we've had for eons.

Right, duvet bekons...sweet dreams Petettes

Sezza x