Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

Dear All

Unfortunately, following almost a month in hospital and being diagnosed with lung and liver cancer, my Dad died last night.

Planning to call Pete but also still planning to go ahead and go on holiday on Friday, even though we'll have to come back from Northumberland for the funeral, as there's nothing I can do down here.

Will be restarting the program by the end of the week as I need a focus at the moment.

Thanks to all those who responded to my blog last time.

Sara

Dear All

Another break I'm afraid. Not much to report as everything has gone on hold for a few days. Dad's in the hospital - just been diagnosed with liver and lung cancer and looking like he's going downhill fast.....

Not much else to say at the moment and nothing I can do about it but it's terrible to see someone who was so strong looking so weak and vulnerable.

See you soon I hope.

Dear All

Apologies for the gap in entries. Unfortunately, my Dad's in hospital and things not looking good at all. Eating gone out of the window for a few days. So, am restarting program at day one tomorrow in order to get back into everything as I'm not doing myself any good by not looking after myself whilst he's ill. Visiting will probably cut down on my exercise a bit but intend to go back to the gym on Wednesday night.

See you tomorrow.

Dear All

Another stressy day at work, compounded by hearing that my Dad was taken into hospital. Very snacky today too, but I need to learn a new way of reacting when these things happen, so tomorrow will be different.

See you then.

Dear All

What a day that was! Boss on holiday not having briefed any of us on what might happen on some of his key work so lots of rushing around and little time to relax or eat slowly. Finally came home an hour later than usual and stuffed my face. Suffering from great PMT too so lovely carb cravings.

Well, nothing I can do about that day, so on to tomorrow - had to miss the gym session but back on for Friday instead. Learning points - sit down and have a drink first and relax instead of eating first, portion size needs limiting and I need to slow down....

See you tomorrow everyone.

Cheers

Sara

Dear All

Nearly 2 weeks since my last entry - lost a bit of motivation along the way. It would be easy to blame hormone imbalance - I'm having problems with my HRT prescription at the moment - but I think I'm just fed up with myself and didn't want to journal when I hadn't got much to say.

I've still been going to the gym and have just restarted the 21 day programme again - kept restarting it as I kept puttng off sitting down and watching the video each night.

Feel like I'm doing it on my own at the moment. The only good thing I've done in the last few days is to have eaten more vegetables than normal.

Off to the gym on Wednesday night.

Cheers

Evening All

Quick entry tonight. Lots to think about after my course finished on Wednesday and not enough time to really absorb it all, but re-focusing and giving myself the time to start properly on Saturday.

Off to the gym tomorrow.

See you then.

Evening

Just finished the 7th live online session and watched the video on weight loss guru.

What with listening to the live online sessions which seem different this time around and the course I've been attending, I've spent a good deal of time thinking about why things haven't worked on the health and fitness front in the past. I'm beginning to think that this is because I feel I don't deserve to spend time on myself and also because I'm scared of how I'd feel if I broke out of my old habits. Goal setting hasn't been realistic for me as I wasn't able to see myself as a slim person.

Anyway, final session of my course tomorrow and off to the gym afterwards a bit earlier than normal which means that I can sit down and focus on what I really want and what has been stopping me in the past.

See you tomorrow.

Dear All

Feeling a bit on the low side today, but probably just because our son decided not to sleep in the hotel room last night so I am very tired today. I had to come back from Derby and go straight out to a course I'd been offered after I'd booked the trip to Derby, so it was a bit of a rush and I'm sitting here with my fingers crossed hoping my son won't wake up tonight. Amazing how sleep deprivation can bring you down a bit.

Anyway, had a nice weekend and didn't think about very much at all in terms of the program, so yet again wondering if I should just pause the programe for a couple of days to get myself back on track.

Oh yes, in terms of the tool tracker use. Can anyone tell me if I'm supposed to fill it in the day after I've used the tool, so filling in day 2 on day 3, or I seem to get an email telling me that I'm planning to use a particular tool on that day.

See you tomorrow.

Hello

Well, a good day today. Managed to get some herbal tea in as well as normal drinks, increased my water intake and did a fair bit of walking around a local street festival. Fairly active day with some household stuff on top, so think I've put in some activity, even if it wasn't 30 minutes of walking each day. Still looking for ideas when my lifestyle doesn't permit 30 minutes of walking at a brisk pace every single day. No opportunity to get up any earlier than I already do, and as I'm out at the gym 3 times a week, I don't want to sacrifice any more evenings as it reduces the amount of time I get to spend with my husband and my son. Ate quite slowly at each meal today, so felt pretty good about that.

See you tomorrow.

Evening

Managed to get down the gym today although I had to talk myself into it. Increased my water, had some decaffeinated coffee and green tea too.

Been going over the first 3 days of the programme and feel I'm not eating slowly consistently. Sometimes, I go too long without eating and then am so hungry I ram some snack food down as quickly as possible. Sometimes I'm eating when I'm actually thirsty or tired when the best thing to do is to sit down for a few minutes, relax and just have a drink of water instead until I've decided what I really want. And sometimes, out of habit, I'm piling the plate high and then feeling far too full and drowsy and all I want to do is sleep.

Onwards and upwards tomorrow - I feel like the message on patience and understanding how I learn from what I'm doing is finally starting to sink in.

See you tomorrow.

Hello

Just settling down before bed now. Busy day going to my counselling course which was great and ties in well with what we've been doing here.

Got to the gym and everything's getting easier now - 4th session on my new programme but I just want to know why I'm the only one in a puddle of my own perspiration at the end....

Just about to record what I've been eating and put down my tool use so I can keep proper track of what I'm doing (or not doing).

See you tomorrow.

Evening All

Just checking in after the live online session this week. Quite an emotional session. I've been going to a course related to my counselling sessions, looking at self-esteem andbeliefs and it's all building up for me now. Off to my 4th session tomorrow, but everything seems to be coming together.

I'm a born worrier who is always looking at the future and never living in the moment, beating myself up over what I've done and agonising over decisions and I finally feel like I can do something about it. I need to build up to my goal day by day and "live in the moment" to create what I want.

And I don't know why people join Weight Watchers, they're only focusing on the symptoms and not getting to the root cause of what's going on and how to sort things out in the long-term. Joining this program is much better value for money and at least I don't go around judging myself by how much I weigh on the scales each week.

See you tomorrow.

Evening

Had a lot to prepare for last night so wanted to get ready for my course rather than making a journal entry. Quite interesting stuff really as it's about negative self-talk and beliefs and another way of looking at reprogramming our minds to be more positive. All went well today and am looking forward to my next session on Wednesday.

Managed to get round the gym on Sunday as planned and found it quite hard work, but today my legs feel a lot better so I think my body is reacting quite well on my new program.

I've been dipping in and out of the 21 day course, so I'm going to restart again on Wednesday after this week's live online session on Tuesday night and will definitely be making use of the tool tracker this time around, not "trying" to use it but just using it regardless of how well I've been using the tools. I can see that it's one way I've been avoiding acknowledging how few of the tools I've been using or how well.

See you tomorrow night after the live online course session.

Cheers

Hello again

A bit tired today. Had my sleep interrupted last night by some rowdy locals having a big argument outside the house - lots of screaming etc.

Did some housework and worked up a real sweat - now was that exercise or was it a hot flush?

Had lunch out with my son and my husband and ate quite slowly so felt full quite quickly and offered some of it to my husband. Felt the need for an ice cream but not so bad as my son tried to pinch most of it from me and I realised part-way through that I didn't really want it after all.

Anyway, on a course on Monday so can't go to the gym and will be going tomorrow morning instead so I don't lose my momentum. Felt exhausted after Friday night's efforts but think I'll be able to do it now as I've trimmed a few minutes off the cardio to fit it into my available time and am trying to focus on the interval and resistance training too.

Managed to type all of my notes from the live online sessions so will be starting to read through them tomorrow and then actually do someting more about it. Kept telling myself I couldn't do anyting until I had all my notes in order so have got rid of all of my excuses now.

Think I'm just about getting used to the taste of green tea and liquorice tea too now.

See you tomorrow.