Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

That's the plan. I am feeling much much better and am ready to go back to the gym. Today's tools : drink water; eat healthy food; go to the gym as well as walk the dog!

I'm also going to reduce the stimulants this week - only one cup of tea in the morning and it's going to be water/mint tea for the rest of the day.

Off to do some work.
Jenny

Yesterday - bit of a wobble - (chocolate just happened to get bought - by me as well!) But I didn't eat it all - I made sure it was finished by everyone else and it is now gone - so I will forgive myself and carry on. The thing is I don't really know why I bought it - I was buying something for my daughter in the local garage and it just caught my eye and without a moment's thought I bought it.

I really must address my mindset at these times. I need to really focus on why I am doing this and think of my goals and commit to the lifestyle changes - I am too quick to dismiss it all in a moment that think that I'll start again tomorrow - or next Monday or whenever. It is a commitment issue and I am going to have a really good think about it over the next day or two. After all I managed to stop smoking years (20) ago and that was just the same issues then - I wanted to stop but didn't seem to be able to gather the momentum to actually do it. I am so sure that this programme is the right way - it simply makes sense, it has the support built in - so I am going to have to play my role if I am ever going to make this work. But oh dear it does seem like a stuggle sometimes!

Never mind - off to walk the dog, make the sunday lunch and get sorted for the rest of the day.

Have a good Sunday folks]
Jenny

No Seriously!! I have been knitting after dinner the last few evenings and it really works - I don't even think of eating - despite the presence of two large bags of my favourite crisps in the larder (thanks hubby!!!!`), I actually find it quite difficult to put down ! and have to be strict to stop when I get to a certain bit. (the family are very amused!! since they have never seen me knit). I wonder if it is my sister (the knitting queen) looking down on me and encouraging me to knit for her Grandchild - probably not, but a comforting feeling!)

Anyway - back to where I am . Actually in quite a good place - I have done pretty well this week - have not completely avoided the crisps and wine, but have only had very small amounts. I had a lovely walk yesterday and have the whole family at home again this weekend. So my challenge will be not to overeat since I'll be cooking lots for them and trying to feed up my son before he goes back to uni. Although since he ate for England last night - I have made a huge chicken casserole, loaded with veg and he finished it off with no problem! So I have got the meals planned and have got the food in - so that I know what I have to do and will hopefully stay on the straight and narrow.

Exercise - hopefully I'll be back at the gym on Monday - I have given myself a really good rest and my energy levels are really back up again. I feel as if I am nearly back to full strength and will start the exercise again slowly. I am feeling so positive today - long may it last.

I hope everyone has a really good weekend.
Jenny

Yesterday went really well. In a bit of a rush to get ready to go out, but just wanted to log in quickly and report progress. I'll catchj up with the blogs and news later. I had a really good day yesterday and am feeling so much better - I might even go to the gym tomorrow - although with another full day at college I don't want to overdo it - I'll wait and see how I feel - maybe a few hours ironing will be better.

I have found a great way of avoiding snacking in the evening - I have started to knit my future great niece/nephew a hat! It is years since I did any knitting - but it keeps your hands and mind busy and away from the larder - try it!!

Jenny

I want to know why I can stand in the larder and eat a handful of crisps - fully aware of what I am doing and feeling that I'll worry about it tomorrow - I really need to address that!
Jenny

OK - just spent a week getting my energy back and for the first day today I actually feel better - going to continue to take it easy so I don't have a relapse, but at least feel that a longer (maybe uphill) walk with the dog is in order.

I have reset back to Day 1 as I realise that I have to try harder on the food front. I kept a really strict food diary yesterday and saw the old pattern again - great choices and really healthy food up until 7.00pm and then Opppps - a glass of wine and then it started to slide - just a handful of crisps and then a handful of peanuts and finally another glass of wine. Luckily there is no chocolate, or that would have definitely gone!

So - I'm going to try really really hard ALL DAY - and going to use some better tactics in the evening. The first thing is to eat dinner before 7.00 - then I'm not tempted into a pre-dinner glass of wine etc. The second thing is to drink two large glasses of water whilst I am preparing the meal - and finally just focus on how pleased I'll be tomorrow when I blog and say that 'yesterday' went well. Also I have the ate thirty group this evening - so it'll be embarrasing to go on line to talk to the others knowing that I've just scoffed a lot of unhealthy food!

So today is sorted - (brave words - ask me tomorrow how it went!)

Hope everyone has a good day.

~Jenny

Back on line and feeling a little better - certainly got a little more energy and am really trying not to eat the wrong things - biggest problem is that I'm not entirely sure what I should eat at the moment as I don't want to eat anything that can upset my system! The sad thing is that I appear to have 'put on' weight - I haven't weighed myself (wouldn't dare), but it's probalby just the lack of exercise. But the good news is that I am definitely on the mend and plan to get back to the gym next week - just going to walk the dog and keep things quiet again this week - definitely going to stay away from alcohol, all wheat based things! Hope everyone has a good day.

Jenny

Not feeling so good this morning physically, but mentally feeling a lot better. I have got over the 'why me? - this is such a bloody nuscience' stage and am now resigned to see it through and just take things easy - be good to myself (mentally - not in the sense of stuffing my face!!) and do what I can. I have loads of work to do and I am going to do the best I can and keep focused on rest, relaxation - drinking water - and only eating the very best of foods to make sure I get well as soon as possible.

I love reading the blogs and enjoyed the 'vegetarian debate' on the other site. There are obviously good things about both styles of eating and people obviously feel very strongly! For myself - I can't imagine not eating meat - but that's all to do with my upbringing - my father was a beef farmer! so vegetarianism was like a swear word!!

Off to work - I think I'll have a mint tea and settle down to some readingl

Hope everyone has a good day,
Jenny

I have reset to day one and am going to take it very slowly this time. Thank you all for your comments yesterday - it always helps -knowing that there is support there and such good advice. I do not feel so upset today, more resigned to a week or so of taking it easy and getting well - I have cleared the diary and will be spending most of my time at home. I will take the dog out twice a day and enjoy this calm autumn weather - eat according to the programme - stay away from stimulants (except for tea!) and concentrate on getting through this. I did quite a bit of work yesterday - only scraped the surface of what needs to be done, but it is a start and I have a place to move on from today.

The ate 30 group was good last night - I almost didn't log on since I felt so rotten about things, but was really glad I did.

I have to do an on-line study session on metabolic stress and starvation !! that should concentrate the mind - hopefully it will not make me hungry.

I hope you all have a good day

Jenny

Hi

I've not done very well over the last week - I have been feeling very down and have actually not really gone mad on food, but have not been able to train. I suffer from Crohn's disease and have a small flare up at the moment so I admit to finding things really difficult - I know I should keep unstressed and eat sensibly but little and often. I also need to rest. But I just find it all so bloody annoying - I want to be well and want to be able to go to the gym and just feel completely bogged down. Bother bother bother - I can't even get logged onto the surgery web site to order my medication - and now have to go over there and sort it out. What a pain.

The thing is I want to just get on with things but can't - and I find it completely frustrating so what I do is pretend it's not happening and just try to get on with things, but feel tired and then don't do things particularly well.

I'm so sorry for this negative blog - it feels better to have got it out. I am going to try and get some work done today so that I feel better about something - and I will eat sensibly - I know it is the only thing that will make me get better.

I haven't blogged for a few days because I feel I am doing so badly and cannot seem to manage to anything about it. I suppose blogging today is at least a positive action and may start me back on the right course.

Jenny

Anyway

At last things seem to be moving my way - we have taken the house off the market - since it is definitely on the way down - regardless of what they say! But I'm delighted!

Work not going brilliantly, but since it's half term and I am trying to spend a little more time with my daughter that is fine.


One thing that I find difficult at the moment is that I am going to the gym at least 3 times each week and have done now for four weeks solid - but am finding it more and more difficult to do the training - bit of a disappointment since i was expecting it to get easier and I'm not really enjoying it! - I do force myself to do it - but wonder if anyone has any ideas as to what I should do. I think I should pay for another personal trainer session- but sort of think also that I should be able to work it out for myself.

Eating has gone quite well - rather spoiled by a 'take away' this evening, but the combination of getting up at 5.45 am and going to college together with the gym and then dealing with my daughter and 3 friends getting ready to go out, left me exhausted and open to the offer by my husband to go and get one! Never mind I didn't 'pig out' I tried to stay to the one dish and did pretty well - especially since I only had one prawn in batter!!!

Will try much harder tomorrow - although to be honest Thursday is really easy as I am at college all day,

Hope everyone has a good day tomorrow.
Jenny

Made a change this morning - I left for college 15 mins early and guess what - got there 45 mins earlier than usual - so I have just found 30 mins in the day - decided to do a quick blog and then use the time wisely doing a bit of an assignment.

I enjoyed the session last night - I must admit - I have been half hearted about the programme for a few days - but Pete has my attention again and I am going to put in a really big effort to get moving towards my under 12 stone goal for the 28th November - (Just 8 lbs to go - so still possible if I work really hard).

Better get going with the work and that will free up some time for the gym later.

Hope you all have a good day - promise to read the blogs later.

Jenny

Here we are again - Monday and I am going to make a huge effort to shake off my glumness. What is important is to be happy and enjoy life - I have got to be positive and work towards achieving weight loss. It simply will not happen by itself.

Yesterday's food:

Bagel and banana with water/tea
water
Coffee
1 1/2 slices of rye bread with cheese and watercress
Roast beef, 3 x (small!) roast potatoes, carrots, green beans, peas, gravy. Followed by (3 more small potatoes, some carrots and gravy!)
Apple Brown Betty !! with custard!!
3 glasses of wine !!!!
Ohhhhhhhhh dear - the only thing I can say is I did enjoy it then and I did stop - I sat beside an OPEN bar of chocolate all night and did not eat any - not even a small piece YES.

However, I do seem to be of the belief sometimes that as long as I am sitting at the table with the family the food does not appear to count! mistake - which I am now aware of - so will try to combat it.

Three things `i learned yesterday:

Food eaten at the table does count!
I like it when I blog honestly and find that someone responds with an "I feel that too" (thanks Mandie!)
It is too cold to go an watch hockey in a shirt and cardigan! and it makes you hungry - all that shivering.

Have a good day all - I haven't got time to read the blogs, but will try to catch up later today.

Jenny

I seem to have come up against a brick wall with all this - I just don't seem to have the patience for it all! I am following the programme, but not as well as I should - I think it is one of those times when I just have to 'float' along. The really good thing is I haven't resorted to crisps and food! It seems strange but I sort of feel like I am trying to find a deep reason for being as I am - BUT actually I'm not unhappy - I don't hate myself and all that's wrong is that I want to lose weight. I really don't think there is going to be a big 'moment' where I suddenly get it. The fact is really quite mundane - if I want to lose weight then I have to try hard and keep the programme going.

Foods eaten yesterday:

puffed oats/ banana/ semi-skimmed milk
tea/water/coffee
apple
1 1/2 slices of rye bread and 2 poached eggs with watercress and french dressing
water
coffee
feta/courgette and tomato salad
glass of wine
water
6 malteasers!!! (at the Theatre)
mint tea - water


Three things I learned:
My daughters are still wonderful!
Eating fish three times a week is actually easy to incorporate into the family diet
It takes 35 mins to walk to the hockey club

I am tired at the moment and I have to concentrate on my work - so sorry if I'm not very upbeat!

Off to work - hopefully I'll be in better form tomorrow!.
Jenny

Well done Mandie - I have found your blogs and ocmments helpful and inspiring. Congratulaitons on being Member of the Month - your interview was very thought provoking. You have done so well.

Off for a walk to think!!
Jenny