Member: Gem
Day 7 (and a re-cap of Day 6)
I had an amazing day yesterday! ......
A few years ago I had a very nasty fall from one my horses, I did a somersault after the horse spooked, bolted & jumped the wing of a very high jump (not my intention) I landed head first on the ground & then slammed my back down on the ice, luckily I didn't break my neck or back but I did damage my SI joint and have 3 herniated discs in my lower back :(
Yesterday I experienced one of my most painful days, not all day but for about 50% of the time my discs were bulging on my spinal nerve, when this happens I get stuck, the pain is excruciating and I usually have to yell for DH to come and help my get un stuck!...... In spite of this during the little time I had without getting stuck, I managed to vaccum, dust, prepare meals AND do the dreaded ironing (I NOW LOVE IRONING) because it's my little window for listening to Pete's video's & other motivational audiobooks.
The biggest buzz for me yesterday was realising that there was a common denomonator ...... MY POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE! not will power!, more power of my mind, I kept talking to myself and refusing to accept that there was going to be pain that lasted more than a quick warning twinge, I read the signs and made adjustments, as a result I have now discovered a sequence of moves I can do to which to shift the disc back into his't pocket YIPEEEEE!
I also spend quality time with my fab little monsters, my youngest "Gabriel" is 21 months old and sooo funny, he has learn't to jump this week :) Reuben my 5 year old thinks he is Spider Man and spends most of the time trying to climb the wall's (doing a good job of it actually).
Right I've got another busy day I'm looking forward to, I've been asked to photograph some horses at an Arena Eventing Show Locally. So i'm off to charge my battery & dust my lenses :)
HAVE A GREAT DAY!
Love Gem xxx
Day 5 :)
Firstly thank you all so much for your lovely messages yesterday, it really spurs me on it was a great bonus to recieve my first message from Pete :))))
Today , with the help of my duck I'm going to focus on my thinking, I had a bit of a mental struggle yesterday afternoon but remained firmly on track, I kept talking positively to myself during stresses that would normally have me diving head first into fatty stodgy oblivion.
Listening to the mp3 just now I really noticed how the music changed when Pete was talking about fatty food, it sounded heavy and dark and gave me an image of dragging myself through mud, then it lifted and lightened when he moved on to talk about all the beautiful sweet healthy natural foods. Got me pondering about sectioning off a part of the garden to make our own little veg plot, I know my boys would love it!
Right I've got a busy day today, I work from home on Fridays but today I'm going to the nurse for screening then off out for lunch, I'm realling looking forward to my healthy choice. Oh last night my DH poured me a small glass of my favourite wine, I was really shocked to find it tasted awful, I asked him did he think it tasted odd? he shrugged and said no .....hmmm don't know whats happened to my wine taste buds! I tried a few more sips over about half and hour and after repeatedly pulling faces at it I slid the half glass left over to him to finish.
Have a great day, keep smiling, Love Gem xxx
Day 4 .... A beautiful moment
Oh I feel quite emotional, I settled down on the sofa to listen to the relaxation mp3, a few mins in I heared my 5 yr old son come creeping downstairs. As he came over I whispered to him to go & play for a few mins, I said mummy is meditating (ok I kew he wouldn't know what that meant) but to my suprise he climbed on the sofa and lay with his head on my chest. My son is such a gentle kind funny boy, as a baby he was so interested in what was going on around him, he didn't really feel the need for lots of mummy cuddles (which I always longed for) but as he is getting older he is becoming so loving and it really fills my heart with so much joy. As he lay there I carried on listening to the tape, all the while gently stroking his temple, I was aware that his breathing had changed and to my utter suprise he fell asleep and is still snoring softy cuddled into my back as I type this. I'm feeling so lucky today and thankful for my lot and during this beautiful moment I was even able to really visualise each step of the journey narated by Pete on the mp3. I just had to share this, I know moments like this will stay in my memory & heart forever.
What a beautiful start to my day :) I wish you all the same today and good luck, think positive and as Pete says give yourselves a pat on the back :)))
Love Gem xxx
Day Two :)
Oh boy I hope I can remember how positive I feel now on any wobbly days, (note to self: store this as my secret weapon ;)
The think I do worry about especially on forums is reading anything negative BUT that's what these lovely communities are for SO I resolve to read the good and bad and hopefully recieve & very importantly give suport as & when needed. Sorry just had to say that so I can tick the "Don't be silly" worry off my list (hope that makes sense) OK I'll explain: I worry that If I read about other peoples problems, psycologically they will transfer to me & I will fail, how selfish is that! So I've had a good ol word with myself and after writing all this I feel better & hope to god if I come on here needing to off load I won't be hearing tumbleweeds LOL!
Hope you all have a very positive, happy day xxxx :))))
What I will achieve on this journey
1. Energy
2. Better Health
3. A lighter fitter ME!
Oh & I'm VERY excited! :))
