Weight Loss Journals - petecohen.tv

So, I have been listening to Pete saying 'if you always do what you have always done, you will always get what you have always got', BUT still doing it!?!

Today I listened to a podcast where he spoke about being a actor and preparing for a part and it got me to thinking.. All of the girls in my office whose figures I admire, my slim freinds and family ALL exercise and watch what they eat. Its so true I cant keep on doing what I have always done as that is what has made me overweight. So from now on all the worlds a stage and I am in preparation for the role of a lifetime. Next time I reach for food when I am not hungry or skip and exercise session I am going to think what would my slim role models do before I act.

PS have done my new Pilates DVD for the first time today, it is very hard but enjoyable I can't wait untill I can complete the whole thing, must go shopping tomorrow for some more fruit and veg, supplies are running low

I have been away over Xmas so no blogging but I have been processing. I realise that I self sabotage as I am afraid of loosing weight. I blame a lot of my issues on being overweight and I worry on a deep level that if I lose weight and the rest of the problems don't go away there is nothing I can do. However I KNOW that the main issue is my lack of self confidence and believing in myself is the first step and all the rest will follow. I need to be consistent in my approach and a new start for the new year is the ideal time to start. So bring it on, new year, new me, new start.

My best friends baby died today after only 8 hours of life. The baby was not exepected to live for long but he came earlier than expected and it is is still very sad. I am desperately trying not to go over board and eat to control my emotions so am going to blitz the housework this morning and then the cinema this afternoon I think. I just wish I could be there for her but they are on the other side of the world which is very difficult at times like these. At least she has her family around her.

I will to learn to be in touch with my emotions so I don't turn to food for comfort. I am going to be slimmer and fitter so I have more energy to get out there and live my life, fufill my potential and achieve more.
(Day 1, round 2)

PS My gym membership is running out, can anyone reccomend any good at home exercise DVDs for beginners?

I made it to Bodypump tonight and jumped on the scales while I was there and surprisingly despite my wobbles I have lost a little bit of weight. I do know from past experience that I can take about a week for wobbles to catch so need to keep this good new momentum going, am on day 20 but an going to go straight back to day one as I am getting much more out of each day by rewatching to build those good foundations.

I am going to try really hard steady out after my recent wobbles. I have noticed that the concequences to my eating badly and being less active are; sore stomach, uncomfortable, tight feeling, clothes not fitting as well, face bloated, acne break out, feeling tired and depressed, eating more because I feel depressed. Its a vicious cycle.

Shopping, I am not a fan but I needed some black trousers to wear to my work christmas night out on saturday... what a nightmare I was trying to squeeze myself into a size too small. Nothing seemed to fit right and when it fitted round the middle they were all too short! Disaster! Usually I would go home and console my sorrows with food (another vicious cycle) but I did need something to wear and I actually found a DRESS! & its RED!!! that I really liked, I went up a size and it fitted really well (its stretchy), I felt comfortable and even good... Am trying not to focus too much on the size in the label after all it can vary so much from shop to shop any way right?

Have been feeling a bit fragile today but managed a walk and picked up my fresh fruit and veges for the week. Am going to be more active, go to the gym and aviod sugars this week.

I have had a VERY wobbly week, my duck is still rebelling against this programme in a big way! I can find some positives though, I have taken the stairs at work 4 out of 5 days, have eaten healthy breakfasts, lunches and snacks, its just the evenings when I have been wobbling. The problem the evenings are pretty long these days...

I think it is because being in this programme is helping/making me confront uncomfortable emotions that I eat to numb them. I need to find other ways to deal with my emotions. I am going to really focus on getting to grip with the tool over the next few weeks so I am fully prepared to make 2010 an exceptional year. Emotions and all, yikes!

To be honest I have not really got my head around this duck concept so after reading Sues blog yesterday I have been thinking and I realise that I do have a Duck, I am just so used to hearing it that it seems normal to have a voice saying well, you cant fit into anything nice anyway you may as well have those cookies/chocolates/pork pies... there is no point going the the gym just go home and sit on the couch. But now I am onto him because it is worth going to the gym to feel slimmer fitter and healthier, to say no to those cookies to be able to go shopping and buy an outfit that I like and not just because it fits. To feel confident in social situations

So look out duck I am onto you! (it has taken a while)

I had a bit of a pause this weekend as it was my friends Hen do, however I think I did OK and was much better than my last night out when I ended up with a 3 day hangover. We did a cocktail making class which was really good as instead of just sitting there guzzing cocktails we go to measure, mix and make our own drinks, it was so much fun! Then we went ice skating (well not me) but a bit of a walk and a break in the evening was really good. Dinner was a lovely 3 courses. I took my time and really enjoyed the meal and the wine I had with it. Then we went dancing for an hour and I stuck to water and I walked home, so pretty balanced over all really. Today I am feeling tired but no sore head. I had light late breakfast and a burger about 3pm and thats it for me today I dont feel hungry at all.

Avoiding sugar and stimulants is SO hard! I though it would be easy as I dont drink caffinated drinks, but then there is all the rest of the sugars.... Had another wobble today when there were sweeties in the office, but then met a friend after work and just stuck to mineral water and peppermint tea. I had pre-warned her that 'on a sugar detox' so no wine for me tonight, no sore heard tomorrow either!

:- )

I met a friend last night for a drink (yep a bit of a wobble on the no sugar and stimulants...). We only see each other about once a year, but she refected back a picture of me that is very far removed from how I see myself. She said, funny, pretty ,cool. I see fat, single, boring, lonley. I need to get in touch with my funny, pretty cool me, but I imagine her to be buried beneath the layers of fat. I guess other people don't see it that way?

I am still wanting to eat everything in sight so am trying not to go into food shops! I have been prepared at work with lunch and snacks but still today has been the first day in a while that I have managed the no sugar and stimulants tool well (one of my 3 for this week). I went back to Bodypump this week even though it took me 3 days to be able to walk normally after the last class. This instructor took us through a longer cool down so hopefully this week I will recover quicker.

Am really enjoying reading everyones blogs, so inspiring - keep it up guys!

I have ntoiced that wen things aren't going well I dont blog, and that is when I should be getting in touch with myself the most. This week sunday to friday went really well, but this weekend has been a bit of a wobble - but not a complete disaster just a few Minstrals and blueberry muffins and no exercise...

I am home alone this weekend, no flatmate and as a single person with no plans I have had nothing to disract me from food. I have been feeling emotional and I think that I must eat to blank out my emotions. So instead of feeling sorry for myself and facing up to my feelings I have a muffin. I have been single for a long time and my friends are all paired off and it is very lonely waiting for them to fit me into their lives. I try to be strong and independant and still get out and do things but there is only so much... I know that if I always do what I have always done I will always get what I have always got i.e. fatter but how do I break that pattern, I am not used to facing my emotions and am scared!

Today was very windy and rainy and caught the bus to work, I dont like doing this but it was not umbrella weather! I walked up the stairs to work though. I am feeling really stiff from my first bodypump class yesterday but will definately be going back next week. I also managed another day without sugar and stimulants and feel so much better for it. So hopefully will be able to walk to work tomorrow to loosen up my aching muscles, actually I dont have the bus fare in change so it mught be a wet walk.

I am finding just focusing on the same 3 tools is much easier than changing them day to day even if I dont have an activity session booked for one day thay are planned into my week. 2 so far since sunday and am going to the gym again tomorrow. I just hope no one tries to temp me with sugar tomorrow - or perhaps I do so I can practice saying no thanks.

Its getting there, slowly. Today I was not as active as I spent my lunchtime orgaining the Hen do, however think this is now all organised so tomorrow will pop out during lunch for a walk around the block and will take the stairs not the lift. I have aslo booked in for my first Body Pump class after work, am quite nervous - but you've to move it to loose it after all!

I also slipped up again whan my flatmate bought out after dinner mints tonight. I have said it before its my biggest weakness saying no to someone else, will I hurt their feeling by owning up to the fact that I want to become slimmer fitter and healthier or am I just embrassed to admit I am trying incase I fail...again. The good this about this programme is that it has taught me not to give up but must be more committed, no one else can do it for me.