Just weighed myself :(
Well I am having some difficulty at the moment!
My brain will not engage with the fact that I am putting on weight with what I am eating.
We eat all the healthy stuff on a daily basis, perhaps not enough fruit but I am eating nuts, seeds fish, veg etc.
Unfortunately I am eating cakes, ice cream mochas you name it, it feels like a collapse, except I know it is not what I really want, really; But I am confused about what life has in store for us in many ways.
I do not know how to deal with life at the moment; my 15 is announcing very vocally that he does not want to go on holiday with us for a week. Well that is too bad it is one of the last ones he will have to take with us, he was only 15 in May!
So no way jose is he not coming! - Stress
Business successful? Stress
Husband preoccupied! Stress
Where is more money coming from? Stress
What do I want? Stress
What is happening to our money invested in property for our pensions? Stress
On the otherhand I have really enjoyed finishing off planting my garden and tending my flowers.
I have enjoyed getting ready to go away to our lodge; ironing, sorting the house.
I have decorated the lounge with a feature wall in laura ashley wallpaper - looks really good!
I have painted three walls in our cami's/guest bedroom and will be putting up a feature wallpaper on return from our break.
We may be meeting my middle daughter this aftie in Wells and willl prolly take her to the Bishops Palace there for afternoon tea - it is so peaceful and serene in there as the towns sounds melt away!
Finally she and Marc will be celebrating their 1st Wedding Anniversary tomorrow!
A year ago we were in Kefalonia ready for the wedding- an age ago already!
Lastly Olivia also wants to spend a couple of days with us next week at the lodge - so I am really happy about that - she and I get on so well!
Daily life can be great but the big picture is so much less certain and I eat cakes for England and have put on lots of weight - I haven't cared that I am for some unfathomable reason, but when I stepped on the scales for the first time in about a month wow what a weight gain!
I have got to motivate myself again somehow!
Earthmother x
I have put on weight in the last few months
I am sure we dont eat processed food anymore - manybe it is the portion size I need to control again
You have soo much going on
I worry about the future too but you cant really control it until it is here & you will deal with it when IF it happens
try to take some time out on holiday for yourself, nice walk or bath
You need to be selfish for a few hours & think of yourself
I think portion size is defintely an issue and sometimes we use salad size plates, I think perhaps we should use them all the time for me and my husband.
I suppose I have got a bit too lazy with thinking with my logical brain and have been using my emotional one too much.
After all I know absolutely that I feel so much better when I exercise and eat more healthily. I am always active - I know that is not a problem.
Dancing with my ballet and modern jazz after the summer is one of the pursuits for me after the summer, I really enjoyed that.
Now to reverse this weight gain, fairly substantial gain too!
Time for my to set some mini goals for the next week!
Earthmother xxx