Muffin top
Getting dressed this morning I couldn't sensibly do up my trusty 'fat' jeans. I'm wearing them now with some rather nasty muffin top. I thought I'd keep them on to feel the discomfort of the waist band. It's too easy to slip on leggings and tunics and not notice I'm expanding. My waistline is now at day 1 again. But I know I am not, I've come a long way since day 1.
Still feeling bloated from too much food last night. Breakfast is a glass of goats milk (yummy!!!) and a banana. I've packed a healthy picnic for todays trip to the cinema and park.
I am doing my very best to shut the duck up about my feelings of these jeans and how blobby my body has become. This is fact, I am wearing more fat and have lost a lot of tone. It will be hard work to get this off, but I'm not scared of the process. I'm ramping the effort up by making some recipe and meal planning time. I hope the nutrition plan has things the family will enjoy.
My heart feels heavy, but I'm trying to laugh with myself.
One of the things I love about this programme is that it helps us find perspective in what we do, and your blog is just full of perspective - because you know that you can do it and you know that it won't be a horrible, painful experience like those ridiculous diets we've all tried in the past. Recognising this is worth a big pat on the back in itself.
Remember too, that you've been sick and so not able to do some of the things you were doing before. I know you're starting to feel better and starting to turn that round too....so although it might not feel like it, you're really turning a corner.
Don't be hard on yourself. You know you'll get there and you'll be stronger for this obstacle. Remember the baby steps and to congratulate yourself for every achievement, no matter how small - they all add up.
You ARE a Stellar Star - so don't you forget it, and do keep laughing.
Hugs
Bx
Have a lovely picnic