Day 9 – Being relaxed
Mother's day yesterday. Took mum for lunch, with some others. Had a nice lunch of nut roast and lots of vegetables. Took her to a craft centre afterwards and to a garden centre today to buy lots of plants for her garden and the cemetery.
Saw “Love Never Dies” on Sat eve. It was good, but not spectacular. Strange story. But a good night out.
Day 9 - Relaxed – no I'm not relaxed about losing weight. It is very stressful. I've only ever lost weight twice in my life, and I had to really starve to do that. Now I am putting on weight daily and this is very upsetting and stressful. Yes, it can feel desperate.
I think scientists are relaxed because they are dispassionate about their experiments. They mostly are not affected personally by the results.
The R&T mp3 track really does not do anything for me. I dread having to listen to it each night. I have listened to it every night for 14 nights and still find it a chore. And I resent the time spent on it when I could be doing other things. This is because I am seeing no good results from spending time on it.
Breathing – the deep breathing makes me dizzy whilst doing it and for a long time afterwards. It does not relax me or make me feel good. I can even pass out when doing it. I am a shallow breather. Not sure how to change that yet.
I believe I am being patient. But I am running out of patience as I have now put on 8lbs in the past 2 weeks.
I've had some thoughts for what other actions I can take. Going to write them down and review.
Have you tried to contact Pete? Please think about it - that's what he is there for.