Good and Bad Days
Missed blogging yesterday -visited Dad - so frail and can't even raise himself off the chair but we had a lovely chat when I was doing his ironing. Some days he has been so confused haven't been able to have any sort of conversation but he is mentally pretty good at the moment so I am thankful. So sad when such a strong man has become so weak. Really want to be a daughter again and not a carer - how selfish does that sound? Just miss the man he was really.
Good day today - daughter won age group 800 free in county swimming championships, has qualified for regional championships and came second overall out of all age groups. She was really pleased and said all her nights training had been worthwhile - I am so proud of her. She has gone back to the pool for more swimming training tonight and I am catching up on work e mails and preparing for big meeting tomorrow where I have to cover for my boss - what have I been doing? having tea ( decaff) and chocolate - at least I have recognised my trigger points for eating this junk - will change reaction next time I feel anxious. ( Almost said need to change then but am trying to change vocabulary!) Positive stuff - have taken dog out for 2 walks of 35 mins each today -even managed to climb over gate without falling over!
Still a wobbly weeble but determined not to fall down yet! See you all Tuesday and hope you have had a fab weekend!
xx
so, please don't feel guilty - we carers all feel the same i think :)
well done to your daughter ! lucky dog - lots of nice walks :)
Some days I get glimpses of my dad, but a lot of the time he's a grumpy old man whom I barely recognise.
So sad.
Glad you had a good day.
Love BikerB x
Like you I missed the man that he was but he became another person over the last few years. He knew us, there was recognition, but we never knew if he was really happy or sad because the emotions just seemed to have disappeared.
Congratulations on your daughter's swimming achievements - it's so good when all that hard work and dedication pay off (both on your part and on hers).
See you on Tuesday.
Dolly
Thank you so much for your messages - whilst I miss my old Dad, I am lucky in that I have 2 sisters and a brother who live near him and do everything they can. As I live further away and work full time I go at weekends.
I speak to him everyday and although he gets confused whether it is day or night most of the time we can have a conversation of sorts.
It has helped me to share this and I thank you for sharing your experiences. xxxx