Fab Feb Days 24-28
Wow, the end of Feb! How did that happen?!!
I guess its time for a bit of a look back about what has gone well.
The past couple of days I've had my 'oldest' (we've been friends since we were 13) friend stay who is also my eldest daugher's godmother and I've had such a good time. Normally it would be and excuse to get takeaways and drink waaaayyyyyy too much each night, but I did really well not succumbing to those 'normal' activities that I would have done in the past. We did fancy icecream after dinner and went to the shop to get one, and we did share a bottle of wine each evening, but in the past we'd have probably had at least a bottle each (maybe it is a sign that we're getting old???)
My birthday is now only just over a week away and I did want to lose 7lbs before then. I think given how my attitude to food seems to be just about turning a corner I have a very good chance of achieving what I have set out to do, and I have got the next week planned already food wise, and I just need to make sure that my hunger scale gets noticed and I have things to snack on if I need to without getting too hungry by any given meal.
Now the fog of depression seems to be lifting a little I also realise how many amazing people I have in my life, and that I dont need one person's attention to feel validated and loved and as such that relationship that was holding me back I think will gradually fade in to the background. It feels a good thing, and I feel freer as well, just need to persuade him that us losing contact wont be the end of the world! He's a bit clingy and needy and so what I dont need.
The (almos)t ex-husband - (divorce should be through on Weds, well the Nici anyway) is being very helpful with the children at the moment and the kids seems very settled right now, though I know that I need to spend some more quality time with my eldest as its what she needs.
I generally like March as a month. You can start to smell spring in the air. I'm looking forward to a Mellow March where all the stresses and strains of the past few months melt away. And of course there is the V Show to look forward to and the party to meet all you lovely folks, and my birthday which I'm spending with Sezza and another friend :D
Febuary does always seem to go so fast, I'm amazed to find that not only am I leaving the office in the light but a couple of weeks later I'm picking up the kids when it's light . It just makes me want to grab it with both hands and get into the garden and grow my veggies and see whats popping up!
You seem a lot more content at the moment - I hope that you find time for yourself and your daughter and have some wonderful fresh moments in March.