Eating slowly
Ok, today I WILL eat slowly. I've always had a problem eating mindfully and this is probably the key once again. Although I'm not exactly bolting my food down like I used to, I think I'm eating again without really being aware of what I'm doing. So concentrating on what I'm doing and putting down my cutlery is the order of the day.
The last couple of days I've deliberately served myself up a smaller portion at dinner. I have a bit of a psychological block when it comes to portion control as the rebel in me starts to feel deprived and then wants to overeat, and so whilst serving smaller portions I've told myself that I can go back for more if I really want to. Of course it will come as no surprise that I've felt satisfied after eating the smaller portions and haven't gone back for more. It hasn't been a surprise to me either, as this is exactly what happened previously - it's just that portion sizes have recently started creeping upwards again.
I also discovered this morning that I've dropped a couple of the 7lbs I've put on in the last couple of months. This is likely down to running and hopefully my hormones are beginning to settle a little (fingers crossed) - but it has certainly made me feel better about myself. I suppose I was a bit worried that it wasn't going to stop at 7lbs and all the work of the last 11 months would be undone.
Anyway with all of the above and a much better sleep last night (woke at 3am but went back to sleep fairly quickly), and the sun shining, I'm feeling much better about everything today. Will run this evening to keep the momentum going - am enjoying it so much and can't believe that I'm actually going to run 30 minutes this evening (albeit in 2 lots of 15 with a 2 min walk in between).
I guess I'm learning that my mind is the most important thing in this process and how I manage it. I've recognised that I need to give myself permission to fail in order to stop myself from feeling deprived and pressured....and then the rebel in me will do exactly the opposite. This has started to make perfect sense to me as I've spent my entire life being really hard on myself and expecting myself to be perfect at everything, giving myself permission not to be perfect is rather liberating.
Oh dear, another novel from me...so better go get on. Hope everyone is having a good day.
Bx
Add Comment
you're doing really well. well done on those smaller portions - they're a real struggle for me :)
