Paused videos but not programme.
Have had to pause the "days" as I've not been able to the spend the time on them. On Tuesday we had the funeral of our dear friend and it was a day to remember, she had "learning difficulties" and drew people not only to her but to each other as well, she was indeed a "lesson in friendship" so it was a wonderful marking of her life and ended with a "party" for all her many friends. Different but exactly what she would have loved to have happened. Needless to say there was lots of food on the buffet which I would previously have tucked into, but managed to stay off the pastries and sausage rolls etc and just have a couple of brown butties (healthiest choice available) and when buttering some delicious looking bara brith and was everso tempted managed to stop and think (the tenth tool I've had to discipline myself to use!) and just remember how horrid I'd feel when I'd had it, that one piece would only lead to another and to think how good I'd be feeling after that I'd resisted it and so stopped myself, this sugar addiction really has got bit teetjh and I know for me it has to be nothing or else it would be all!
Yesterday was out for dinner didn't feel tempted at all by pud but had a strawberry off my friend's choc fudge cake plate and it had on it a tiny bit of choc sauce, I felt like all the devils from sugar hell had leapt out to drag me in!! I just craved sugar for the rest of the night, maybe it was all in my mind but it really was bad, managed to resist mainly I think because it almost frightened me how strong the urge was but also because I didn't want to lose ground or to "let the side down" so kept thinking how good I'd feel if I resisted. Well the next moring I did feel good so I weighed myself and found another 2lb winging its way to oblivion and the 15 stone barrier broken! So a total of 22lb gone since I started the programme. Dead chuffed!
Have not managed to drink the 2l for the last 2 days, circumstances and being in places where the inevitable result could not easily be sorted! Have been feeling very dry as a result and today have made up for it!!
Otherwise found it suprisingly easy to stick to the other tools, they really seem to be becomming a part of life. A magic part of life! Am so enjoying the feeling of being in control of my eating and also of my life in general, I can't even describe all the changes taking place but they are making me a so much happier person with far more enthusiasm for life.
Have become so much more comfortable that I have started on the exercise tools!!!! and have been cycling in our local hilly country park, and today hubbie said "come on we can fit a ride in, let's keep it going and as far as we can make it a daily practice"!!!!!!!!! That was really music to my ears bless his heart as we have a fair age difference and it's sometimes felt a bit difficult to say right-o I'm off for my exercise sesh! But he now wants to lose weight as well - Rome wasn't built in a day - but we're now both moving in the right direction together even if slowly at first. I just can't thank everyone enough for all these changes in my life, Pete and team and all the lovely bloggers who don't even realise how much your support has influenced me.
So its on with the video programme now, have missed you all and hope to catch up now on all your news via reading the blogs. We had an expression in South Africa for when we really wanted to get stuff done and it's "Go for the gap chinas (friends)!!
Enjoy the cycling - it's great your Husband wants to do it too, it's so nice when you can share the fun!
Luv
Debs x
Luby
well done for resisting the temptations of the buffet...and at such a potentially difficult time too you should be proud of that.
i too am an all or nothing with sugar..so am aware of its effects too. however, you are recognising that effect now which is a step closer to controlling it. then on top of that you are doing the cycling too..and how lovely tohave someone to share that with too enjoy love nikki xx